Trauma Wounds

Learning to understand and Identify in order to heal.

All of us experience trauma personally at some point in our lives. We see and hear about traumatic events almost daily around the world. We have memories of trauma and rejection from past lives and even ancestral trauma patterns within our DNA. The human body has built in connections to the rational mind of fight or flight instinct which is automatically activated . This is the basis upon which our rational mind evaluates people and events in conjunction with our learned beliefs and perceptions regarding the world. This triggers reactions of behavior to what we see or experience.

You may even find your body responding to something with pain due to a DNA memory stored in our body of a previous similar event for ourselves in this life or another, even of a ancestor passed to us in our DNA. You may wonder how a past life of grandparent could affect us. This is not a simple concept for it is a multidimensional topic, but I will try to break it down into the simplest explanation possible.

Life on Earth, ALL LIFE, is connected not only because we are all a part of the Source of Creation, but because we are all connected via the Creational Matrix of Earth. Within the Earth’s grids and ley lines are also crystal matrices. When we are not incarnate these crystal matrices hold the memory of us as an individual to be accessed by mass consciousness, and then we reconnect to it and mass consciousness of the Creational Matrix, if and when we reincarnate. This is done via our DNA which is multidimensional. It is not my purpose in this writing to explain this, and if you are interested now, please try the book, “The Twelve Layers of DNA” by Kryon.

The mass consciousness within the Creational Matrix determines what life is like on Earth and what we perceive as reality. All we perceive has been agreed upon at some point in evolution. For example we all see a table as a flat surface supported by vertical legs, usually 4. It is through this connection that we also connect to past life karma. Our familial genetic karmic wounds are stored within the genetic DNA we inherit from our parents on the cellular level. While the personal past life is from a consciousness level. All of the above affect our perceptions and life choices.

Before incarnating you have taken all of these factors into consideration in creating the plan for your life in form. We choose our parents, where we will be born, when, what karmic patterns we will work to clear, what we will seek as knowledge and understanding, and even what higher service we plan on doing. The hard part is that earth has a policy of amnesia for the unascended beings when you incarnate. This means that you forget, who you are and what you came in to do in order that you don’t abuse your power to create until you have chosen to move into higher spiritual levels and can utilize these abilities for the highest good. This is for our protection so we don’t create more karma.

During each life we also experience new trauma because life on Earth is not easy. We all realize that we have physical conditions that we may have inherited, like being prone to heart disease, asthma, breast cancer, blood diseases. However, we can also have inherited fears, phobia, even abilities or spiritual gifts. From my mother’s mother’s side of the family I inherited psychic gifts. For the women in my mother’s family, they didn’t speak of such things as psychic gifts for that was witchcraft, but they had these thoughts and feelings and unfortunately in denying them, they often caused them to be emotionally and mentally frustrated and for some unstable. It was when my Mother and I began discussing them that it was finally allowed to heal.

Yet, for me there was still a blockages in my connection and it wasn’t until I realized that I had experienced a traumatic past life event in which I felt guilty because I was trying to prevent this event and was unable to stop the perpetrators. I felt guilt that I had failed in my task. It wasn’t until I was able to look at it in this life and understand I can only control my choices and not those of another. I did all I could but the Law of Freedom of Choice, Self Will meant I had to allow them without interference or I would have created karmic repercussions perhaps even worse. In realizing this I was able to release the guilt and trauma and embrace seeing again. For I realize I don’t have to look at that event if I don’t choose to do so, but I have not done anything wrong and it is okay to ‘see’.

I have found it hard to meditate in silence. I can do meditation with music or guided easily. However, to sit in silence was difficult. When I dug deep, I realized a part of me felt guilty about wasting time, when there were so many things that needed done. Growing up on a small family farm there was always something to be done. In our society small farmers not only work their farms but outside of their farms at other jobs. Both my parents worked and my sister and I had many chores to help to keep things going. This had influenced my life so that it was hard to sit and just be when there were things to ‘do’. I knew that our goal is to ‘do’ from a place of ‘being’ with the I AM. I am still working on this but getting better. I know use more music to aid in reaching these states.

This morning I had another realization which triggered this post. I saw a posting by a woman and it had to do with the Divine Feminine. What she said were repeated information we have all heard, but her claims bothered me and I wasn’t sure why. As I shared with a friend, I was able to uncover that in past lives, like in the life I spoke of before regarding the Catastrophic event, I have been bound to not saying too much due to allowing all to their free will choices. This had created the guilt, for a part of me always wanted to say , wait don’t believe that it is not true. Yet, we have all come in to learn, explore and make choices. As I learned in that prior lifetime, I could share the possible outcomes, but it was still their choice and experience to make and have. So I realized that all I can truly do is to share as I am now doing what I have learned and hope the person seeking and needing an answer can find it and make a better choice.

If you have any questions please feel free to ask.

Namaste