Welcoming and integrating all the parts of yourself.
When this blog first came into my mind was with a realization tuning to a program I was guided to watch. Then as I began to write I realized how much more encompassing this topic could be. However, that being said let us begin.
I have been in the process of looking at myself and the blockages I still have left. The second part is balancing the spiritual and physical parts of my life more seamlessly, and integration the masculine and feminine. A part of this also involves taking a course that reflects upon lifetimes when I was a spiritually empowered person, but events happened which caused me to close off and even fear utilizing these energies and gifts in this life.
The show I was guided to watch was “Drop Dead Diva”, an episode called “Crazy” from 2009. The premise of the show is a model dies in an accident and goes to Heaven. She wants to come back and so she hits a big red return button. However, it doesn’t put back in her body it puts her in the body of highly intelligent and rubenesque lawyer who died of a heart attack. The points I was to understand in the episode where to remember, we die and come back in many forms. Just because the form we are in this time, might not be our dream form, we chose to come in and live this life. Thus we need to make the most of it and enjoy life to its fullest while helping others. In this particular episode she is defending a man who due to a brain tumor acts and lives his life differently and his son wants him declared incompetent. He is simply living every moment to its fullest. She defends him by showing the jury that the intelligence she has is no less valuable if she put on rabbit ears. It is simply our matter of perception and beliefs that make it so.
As I began to write it brought back the work I have been doing personally and how this corresponds. We all have pushed the red button to return to life. Unlike the show we carefully plan each incarnation before returning. I work inbetween lifetimes to help others to read their akashaic and plan out their next incarnation. We look at the possibilities and plan the course with guides and teachers and take the leap back into form. Unfortunately, even with our belief we can overcome the veil of amnesia and the illusions of earth, we too often are overcome by the power of the control energy on earth, and can’t hear our guides and teachers. We stumble making rational choices based on our domestication by family and society and our experiences. We feel alone, abandoned by someone or something which is missing, a hole in our heart, which we search to fill.
There are many ways we search, through addictions or control of others and our environment. There is a pain within us that needs healed not filled. It is by opening the heart, that we can connect to the Heart of Creation to heal and fill that empty space. In this we then know we are never alone. We can reconnect with our Soul, I Am Presence part of God, and our guides and teachers. We can begin to balance the spiritual and physical parts of our lives to enjoy both and share this joy and the light pouring through us with us to help them heal and inspire some.
However, it is those lifetimes when we had encounters that left us afraid to step forward which need to be seen and the issues healed. In this way we can reclaim our spiritual wisdom, gifts and power. We can integrate and balance these parts of ourselves with the Being we are in this lifetime. I recently read a wisdom that addresses this when they say, ” We live many lives, and outside of our earth time continuum they are happening simultaneously. However, the important lifetime for us is this one in which we have the opportunity to Ascend and this allows for all other lifetimes to be freed to rise higher.”
Thus, I realize the importance of the choice I made to jump off into the abyss and take a course to seek to address this lifetimes. I do not do it to seek power over others, but to seek to reclaim the wisdom of who I truly am a ‘daughter’ of the Creator and One with all Life. I came to help others to be able to do this also. I am not recommending spend a great deal of searching into past life times. For many simply want to know if they were someone important in another life to share this with others to feel more important in this lifetime.
We have been victims and victimizers, poor and rich, male and female and a myriad of lifetimes, learning and experiencing. Because we are important in another lifetime doesn’t mean we didn’t choose to be a person of simple means and needs in this lifetime, to experience the entire spectrum. It is our choices that determine if we even succeed in completing the course we set for ourselves before incarnating. To seek in past lives should be about clearing blockages to our manifesting our full spiritual potential to Ascend and be of Service in this lifetime. That is what I am seeking to balance in this life.
One great gift is humbleness, which means we have overcome ego. When we no longer need recognition for our actions and service, and need no outside validation for our lives. We know we are One with the Creator through our I AM Presence and to be of Service is a gift and Blessing.
My prayer for each of you this year is that you are Blessed and inspired to seek the Divine within and to manifest the Divine Being you truly are that together we may make the connection between the Creator and Earth so that the Light of the Divine may shine through Earth and the grids and enlighten the hearts and minds of humanity to enter the Golden Age.
Focus not upon fear in the days ahead. Let go of the badgering of bad news and fear and seek the vision of hope, joy, abundance and compassion for all.
I AM Mareya Shimayah Elohim
Oracle of Divine Grace 