Guilt is like an onion with many layers that need to be removed before you can get to the source.
I love working with my soul, guides and teachers for it is so en-lightening. The prior blog being keyed by my experience yesterday further nudged me forward by yelling GUILT as I was sitting quietly petting the kitty. I have touched on this topic before but like the onion it is good to look at a new layer of understanding.
Yesterday and the yard work are part of this nudge. I usually work being self employed 6 days, it used to be 7, and then on Sunday I do spiritually reading, classes, videos and blogging. I don’t know when I last had a vacation. There is always so much to be done, between work, the household inside and out, and trying to grow spiritually and do what I have contracted spiritually to be of service. It doesn’t help that I have a built in parental voice that says, idleness is the devil’s work. There is something that needs done, do it. Don’t waste time. Time is money. If you don’t do it, who will?
So my three days off involve, doing yard work, creating mp3 and completing some classes and videos I haven’t watched. Even those last 2 are indulgences since, I have dusting, sorting, and sewing that needs done. GUILT – supersized.
So I as I was eating breakfast I asked if there was something I should look at and I have realized Jesus really likes ‘Illusions’ because he told me to just open it up and see what it says. So, of course, I opened it to a section that as I began to read spoke of Guilt. Richard has been asking Don about why he quit being a Messiah. During the night Richard has a dream that showed the crowds following Don but not really listening to what he said or actually making it applicable in their lives. So one day he Quit. He just disappeared. Richard remembered reading about it. It had been front page news : Donald Shimoda, the one they were calling the Mechanic Messiah, the American Messiah, disappeared one day in front of 25,000 witnesses. Richard looked at Donald and he asked , ” Are you allowed? I didn’t know a Messiah could just turn in his keys like that. Aren’t you supposed to save the world.?”
Don answered, ” Of course you can quit. You can quite anything, if your change your mind about doing it. You can quit breathing if you want. ”
The point of what Jesus was trying to show me was that it is the joy of doing the work and service that makes it worthwhile. If it doesn’t bring you joy it is not your hearts calling. Joy and love are not found outside of yourself they are within. That is what Jesus tried to teach that the kingdom is within you. One’s called him the Savior and to him that meant he was a Son of God. He tried to tell people that they were also, but they just wanted the miracles and healing and again as written in the book they didn’t want to change their life to become that which he was sharing.
This teaching isn’t about the life of Jesus, but the teaching in the books that states, Don Shimoda, the Reluctant Messiah, faced the same thing as do many teachers. The people just wanted miracles and healing and not to learn and become the Truth. So, he quit. In reality, we are each our own Savior for the way home is within us. So, he just quit being their example and allowed them to decide for themselves how they would pursue their spiritual path and life.
The key being we have the right to not do something, we don’t have to do it just because it is expected of us or the inner parent feeds us guilt. A good way to work with freeing ourselves of this inner parent voice is to do the Inner Child Healing Meditation. In this we can get to the present life trigger and heal it. The source may actually be past life or ancestral/DNA, but it was triggered in this life by something earlier in our life. You can read that blog and meditation here
https://oracleofdivinegrace.org/?s=inner+child+healing
or I now have an MP3 guided meditation available on etsy.
https://www.etsy.com/shop/violetfireguidance/?etsrc=sdt
I have realized mine was triggered in this life and is Ancestral/DNA so I will be doing an meditation to deal with this on that level. It is time to quit feeling guilty and be able to relax fully. Those things to be done will still be there later.
Namaste
Jesus and
I AM Mareya Shimayah Elohim
Oracle of Divine Grace 