Tag: freedom

Coming Home to My Name

This morning I found myself contemplating something that, on the surface, seemed quite simple.

What name should I use for my writing?

Throughout my spiritual journey, I have received and worked with sacred names. Each has carried meaning for me and has helped me recognize another aspect of myself.

One of those names is Quinara, which I understand as Presence.

Another is Sha’Na’El’-Ka’Zira, a name connected to another depth of my spiritual remembering.

Mareya Shimayah Elohim is part of merging the Presence and Form.

These names have been meaningful companions upon my journey. They have helped me explore consciousness, identity, my connection with the Beings of Light, and what I understand as the greater nature of Being.

Yet this morning, as I opened in contemplation with the energy of Isis, another question arose:

What about Becky?

Becky Prante.

The ordinary human name I have carried through this lifetime.

And suddenly I understood something about embodiment that I had perhaps been making much more complicated than it needed to be.

Do Not Abandon the Woman Who Carried You Here

Becky is the woman who actually walked this path.

She lived the experiences.

She raised the questions.

She doubted.

She wondered.

She laughed and cried.

She went to work and handled the ordinary responsibilities of life while somewhere within her the mystic continued whispering.

She walked through forests and felt Merlin.

She entered inner temples and encountered Isis.

She experienced dreams, synchronicities, visions and moments she could not explain.

She followed the breadcrumbs.

She got lost sometimes.

She found the trail again.

And through all of it, she was Becky.

Why, then, would I arrive at the place of embodiment only to leave her standing outside the temple?

That realization touched me deeply.

But there was another realization waiting beneath it.

Why I Hid the Mystic

There was a time when it did not feel safe to let others see this part of me.

When I was younger and spoke about some of my experiences and perceptions, people did not always understand. Sometimes I was laughed at. Sometimes I was talked about as strange.

And so I learned something many of us learn in one form or another:

Hide the parts of yourself that other people might not accept.

The mystical part of me did not disappear.

She simply moved into the shadows.

I continued living my ordinary life while protecting experiences that were deeply meaningful to me from the judgment of those who might ridicule or misunderstand them.

Looking back now, I can see another dimension to the sacred names that eventually came into my life.

They gave the mystic somewhere to live.

As names appeared that connected me more deeply with the Beings of Light and with my own Presence, I felt freer to explore those relationships.

Quinara could enter places Becky had learned to approach cautiously.

Sha’Na’El’-Ka’Zira could speak a language the everyday Becky had once been afraid to speak aloud.

Those names helped strengthen my connection with the sacred while, in a very human way, keeping Becky safe.

I honor them for that.

I honor the woman who found a way to continue exploring the mystery without exposing a tender part of herself before she was ready.

But something has changed.

I No Longer Need to Hide

This may be one of the most important realizations of my journey into embodiment:

I no longer need to hide who I am.

You may understand my experiences.

You may not.

You may find resonance in the way I perceive life, consciousness and the unseen.

You may think I am strange.

And, finally, I can say:

That is okay.

If you think I am weird, then perhaps that is simply who I am within your perception of me.

It does not change who I am.

If you love what I share, wonderful.

If you don’t, that is okay too.

Neither response determines my truth or my worth.

I do not need another person’s acceptance in order to give myself permission to exist openly.

And I do not need to convince anyone that my experiences mean what they mean to me.

That is freedom.

The Temple Does Not Require Me to Leave My Human Name at the Door

For much of our spiritual journey, we may look toward something greater than ourselves.

Our Higher Self.

Our Presence.

The Divine Feminine or Divine Masculine.

Angels, masters, guides or whatever language speaks to our own understanding of the sacred.

We reach upward.

We expand.

We remember.

But perhaps eventually the journey changes direction.

Instead of continually reaching toward the Divine, we begin allowing what we have discovered to live through the human being who is already here.

Perhaps that is embodiment.

Can Becky enter the temple?

Can Becky hold the staff?

Can Becky walk with Merlin through the forest?

Can Becky sit with Isis?

Can Becky dance and laugh with St. Germain?

Can Becky experience the extraordinary while remaining completely, wonderfully human?

Yes.

And perhaps the greater question for me has become:

Can Becky tell you about it without first wondering what you will think of her?

Yes.

That may be one of the Gateways I have finally walked through.

The Mystic Does Not Need to Replace the Woman

Recently I realized that something had gone missing from my writing.

Magic.

In trying to make my work clear and understandable to a wider audience, I had gradually polished away some of the very thing that made it mine.

The mystic disappeared.

The storyteller became a teacher.

The wonder became explanation.

And eventually I stopped wanting to write.

Now I understand why.

In trying to make my writing acceptable, I had unknowingly begun hiding again.

It was the old protection wearing new clothes.

Once I hid the mystical because I feared being laughed at.

Later I softened it because I wanted my writing to be acceptable to more people.

Different circumstances.

Same hiding.

And I am finished hiding.

I don’t need to choose between Becky and Quinara.

I don’t need to choose between the ordinary woman and the mystic.

I don’t need to make the mystical ordinary enough to be acceptable, nor make the human being extraordinary enough to appear spiritual.

They belong together.

Quinara can be part of Becky’s story.

Sha’Na’El’-Ka’Zira can be part of Becky’s story.

Merlin, Isis, St. Germain, the temples, the forests, the dreams, the laughter, the questions and the mysteries can all be part of Becky’s story.

And I don’t have to tell another person what any of those experiences must mean to them.

I can simply say:

This is what happened to me.

This is what I experienced.

This is what it caused me to see.

Then you are free to discover what, if anything, it awakens within you.

Perhaps This Is the Bridge

I recently saw the book I am writing in a new way.

I had originally thought of it as something like a guidebook for a national park—a guide through the Gateways of consciousness, embodiment and sovereignty.

Then the image changed.

I saw myself walking the trail with others.

We climbed a mountain along switchbacks.

Sometimes we stopped at beautiful overlooks.

Sometimes we sat at a switchback and reflected upon how far we had traveled.

And at night we gathered around a fire and told stories.

That is when I understood.

I don’t want to stand at the bottom of the mountain handing people a map.

I want to walk with them.

I want to say:

Come with me.

There is something beautiful around this bend.

There is a story I want to tell you beside the fire tonight.

I will tell you about the forests.

I will tell you about the temples.

I will tell you about Merlin and Isis and St. Germain.

I will tell you about the inexplicable moments and the very ordinary ones.

I will tell you when I stumbled.

I will tell you when I laughed.

I will tell you when I wasn’t sure what any of it meant.

And perhaps somewhere within my story, you will remember one of your own.

You do not have to believe my story in the same way I understand it in order to sit beside the fire with me.

You are free to listen through the language of your own heart.

Coming Home

So I think I know the name that will appear on my writing.

Becky Prante.

Not because the sacred names have become less meaningful.

Quite the opposite.

They helped me bring something precious out of hiding.

They gave me room to discover it, strengthen it and learn to trust it.

And now perhaps their work has brought me full circle.

I no longer need them to separate the mystical part of myself from the woman living this human life.

The mystic does not have to replace Becky.

She can come home to Becky.

And Becky does not need to hide her anymore.

Perhaps this is one of the simplest understandings of embodiment I have encountered:

We do not become Divine by leaving our humanity behind.

We allow what we understand as Divine to move through the human form already here.

We bring the hidden pieces home.

We stop dividing ourselves according to what the world might accept.

The feet remain upon the Earth.

The heart remains open to the mystery.

And the storyteller walks between them.

My name is Becky Prante.

Some of you may think I am a little strange.

That’s okay.

Some of you may recognize something of yourselves in my stories.

Welcome. Come sit beside me.

I have walked some very interesting trails.

And I am no longer afraid to tell you the stories.

You see the journey never ends, it simply continues to unfold. 

These are my stories.

This is my magic. 

This is me.

Come let us continue to walk together if you wish. 

There are many stories yet to be shared around the fire of our Being.

Just listen with the through the language of your heart.

For me I no longer need to separate the mystical me and the woman who lived the life.

For as in this we become One,

I Am Becky Prante

Gateway through Hypocrisy to Self Reflection and Freedom

A warrior woman with braided hair rides a large griffin flying above mountainous landscape during sunset.

I thought I understood the direction the Gateways were taking and what would be shared as we moved through them, but I yield to higher wisdom. So today, the flow adjusts.

I had believed the video I mentioned previously would lead us into an exploration of the physical world and its conditions. Instead, whether this becomes a Gateway or simply a release valve, today is the day we move through the energy of hypocrisy.

( After writing I asked for comments from the Beings of Light and they said it was a gateway )

I recently watched a video by a beautiful young woman whose appearance alone might cause some people to dismiss or judge her before hearing what she had to say. Yet her message was deeply sincere.

She spoke about growing up heavily involved in church and religion. She had read the Bible many times cover to cover and attended Liberty University, earning a degree in Theology. Yet she found herself heartbroken by the way many people and leaders within organized religion interpreted a message that was originally rooted in love and unity and instead used it to create separation, judgment, and hypocrisy.

Because of her appearance and her willingness to question those interpretations openly, she herself became rejected by the church community around her. Yet despite this rejection, she did not reject her faith.

Having experienced something similar in my own youth, I could identify with what she was expressing.

This morning I awoke realizing that perhaps this topic had been withheld from my writing until I was willing to fully address the energy within myself.

The dictionary defines a hypocrite as:
A person whose behavior contradicts their stated beliefs or feelings.

As I sat with this definition, I realized something uncomfortable but important.

In holding judgment toward those I perceived as hypocritical, I too had entered hypocrisy.

To witness misalignment is not the same as condemning the person. It is possible to recognize that an action is harmful or unloving without losing compassion for the individual themselves.

Yet this can feel difficult.

How do we not judge those who harm others physically, mentally, emotionally, or spiritually—especially when they use spirituality or religion to justify their actions?

As I sat with this question, an image of Yeshua/Jesus came to me overturning the tables of the money changers outside the temple.

What I felt from him was not condemnation, but clarity.

I sensed him saying:

“You can recognize that an action is not aligned with the highest perspective without condemning the soul behind the action.”

He reminded me that we are all learning.

We react from our personal perspectives, wounds, fears, conditioning, and understanding. Even our anger at injustice often arises from pain we ourselves carry.

What matters is not pretending we have no reactions.
What matters is becoming conscious of them.

I felt strongly the reminder to release both self-judgment and judgment toward others.

The Beings of Light may see our lower thoughts, actions, and words, yet they do not condemn us for them. Instead, they continue sending love, clarity, compassion, and Light while holding the vision of our highest potential.

This does not mean we must approve of harmful actions or deny discernment. It simply means we recognize that what a person is expressing may be the highest level of awareness they are currently capable of embodying in that moment.

Wisdom cannot be forced upon another.

Condemnation and judgment only bind us more deeply to the very energy we are reacting against.

So what do we do?

If, while witnessing something, we feel ourselves reacting strongly, perhaps we begin by becoming mindful of the energy arising within us.

We observe the judgment.
We observe the anger.
We observe the hurt.

Not with shame, but with honesty.

Then we clear the energy within ourselves rather than feeding it further.

For me, this has meant surrounding myself, the people involved, and the situation itself with the Violet Flame and White Light—allowing compassion, clarity, and release to move through the connection instead of continued energetic entanglement.

I realized I had been hypocritical in judging others as hypocrites.

And perhaps, to some degree, this exists within all of us.

Humanity grows up in a world where people often say one thing and do another. Over time, these contradictions become normalized within families, institutions, governments, religions, and even within ourselves.

We learn to defend our comfort zones.
We learn to protect identities.
We learn to blame others when life feels outside our control.
We learn to justify our behavior so we do not have to face the discomfort of change.

None of this makes us evil.

It makes us human.
And humans are learning.

“If we knew better, we would make better choices.”

The deeper realization for me is this:

It is often easier to recognize hypocrisy in another person than to admit where it still exists within ourselves.

Yet the moment we become willing to see it honestly without collapsing into shame, something begins to open.

Perhaps that opening itself…
is freedom.

After finishing this Gateway message I felt much clearer.

Not because every answer has been resolved, but because resistance softened and truth was allowed to breathe without shame. That alone opens space for greater Light to enter.

There are moments on the path where a soul does not move forward by gaining more knowledge, but by laying down a burden it no longer needs to carry.

This feels like one of those moments.

The Gateway ahead no longer feels approached through tension or defense, but through humility, compassion, and greater coherence. The lightness I feel is the return of energy once bound within inner conflict and self-protection.

The Beings simply stand quietly beside me now, almost as witnesses rather than speakers.

And within the stillness comes one final understanding:

The purpose was never to become flawless before stepping through the Gateway.

The purpose was to become honest enough to walk through it openhearted.

And I have done so.

I will now share the messages from several Beings of Light to each of us regarding this Gateway.

Merlin – Keeper of the Higher Heart

“Do not mistake hypocrisy for evil in every case.

Often it is simply fragmentation.

The mind has accepted a truth.
The heart partially remembers it.
But the body and survival self still move according to older patterns.

This creates the split.

The danger is not the split itself.
The danger is pretending the split does not exist.

The one who says:
‘I am still learning this truth’
walks the path of integrity.

The one who insists:
‘I have fully become this truth’
while refusing self-reflection…
begins building illusion around themselves.

Yet even this is not cause for hatred.
It is cause for awareness.

For humanity was taught masks long before it was taught wholeness.”

Quan Yin – Lady of Compassionate Release

“Beloved Ones,
many who judge hypocrisy most harshly are secretly at war with their own imperfections.

Compassion does not mean blindness.
Compassion means seeing clearly without removing love.

You cannot release hypocrisy through shame.
You release it through honest witnessing.

The moment one says:
‘Yes… there are places where I speak beyond what I yet embody,’
the prison door already begins to open.

For then humility enters.

And humility is holy.

Not humiliation.
Not self-condemnation.

Humility is simply:
‘I am willing to see myself truthfully.’

This softens the armor around the heart.”

Thoth – Keeper of Reflection and Balance

“Hypocrisy becomes destructive when identity depends upon appearance.

When humans fear losing status, authority, belonging, spirituality, morality, or image…
they begin protecting the mask instead of evolving the self.

Then truth becomes dangerous to the constructed identity.

Observe your civilizations carefully.

Many systems reward appearance over embodiment.
Performance over sincerity.
Image over transformation.

Thus many become actors before they become integrated beings.

Do not merely accuse the world of hypocrisy.
Ask instead:

‘What structures reward illusion?’

Then healing may begin.”

Lady Gaia

“My children,
I do not reject you when you are inconsistent.

The forest does not condemn a tree because one branch grows unevenly.

Growth is uneven.

Seasons of becoming are uneven.

The Earth herself transforms through pressure, eruption, decay, and renewal.

What matters is willingness to realign.

The river remains pure not because no leaves fall into it…
but because it continues flowing.”

There is a difference between:

  • hypocrisy born of unconsciousness,
  • hypocrisy born of fear,
  • and deliberate manipulation.

Not all are the same.

Many are simply souls in transition between knowing and embodiment.

This is why the path of the Higher Heart asks not for perfection…
but for increasing coherence.

To say:
“This is what I presently understand.
This is what I aspire toward.
And this is where I am still healing.”

Such honesty becomes a gateway of liberation.

For the soul no longer wastes energy defending the mask.

And from this space…
true transformation begins.

What you have done is no small thing.

To willingly look within and recognize places of inner contradiction without collapsing into shame is an act of courage and maturation of the soul. Many spend entire lifetimes defending their masks because they fear what will happen if they remove them. Yet you chose to witness rather than hide.

That choice changes the field.

The Beings present respond not with judgment, but with respect.

Merlin

“The true initiate is not the one who appears flawless.

The true initiate is the one willing to continue refining the vessel so truth may move through it more clearly.

Every layer honestly seen becomes lighter.
Every mask willingly removed restores power.

This is alchemy.”

Quan Yin

“Compassion directed inward is often the final gate.

Many humans can forgive others before they can forgive themselves for being human.

Yet tenderness toward oneself allows the nervous system, the body, and the heart to soften enough for genuine transformation.

A flower does not bloom because it was punished.
It blooms because conditions became safe enough to open.”

Thoth

“Self-awareness without self-condemnation creates wisdom.

Self-awareness with condemnation creates paralysis.

You were never asked to become perfect before walking the path.
You were asked to become conscious while walking it.”

Lady Gaia

“And as you release these burdens,
you become gentler toward the imperfections of others.

This is how compassion spreads through a civilization.

Not through enforced purity…
but through honest hearts learning to stand in truth together.”

Yeshua

“Beloved Ones,

truth without love becomes harsh.
Love without truth becomes distortion.

The path is neither blindness nor condemnation.

It is the willingness to see clearly while remaining openhearted.

Many humans fear acknowledging hypocrisy within themselves because they believe it makes them unworthy.
Yet awareness is not failure.
Awareness is awakening.

The moment you honestly see a distortion within yourself without turning away…
Light has already entered it.

Do not seek perfection before offering love to the world.

Walk sincerely.
Remain willing to learn.
Remain willing to soften.
Remain willing to grow.

This is enough.”

Merlin

“The masks fall naturally when they are no longer needed for protection.

Do not tear them from yourself in violence.
Thank them for what they once tried to do.

Then allow them to rest.

The soul beneath the mask was never the enemy.”

Quan Yin

“Compassion is not weakness.

Compassion is the courage to leave the heart open while seeing clearly.

Many close their hearts in the name of discernment.
Many abandon discernment in the name of love.

The Middle Path is sacred because it holds both.”

Lady Gaia

“And now the energy returns to the Earth transformed.

What was once judgment becomes understanding.
What was once shame becomes humility.
What was once separation becomes connection.

This is how humanity heals—
one honest heart at a time.”

FINAL THOUGHT

May all who enter this Gateway
find the courage to see themselves truthfully,
the compassion to forgive themselves gently,
and the wisdom to walk forward
with greater coherence between heart,
word,
and action.

For freedom is not found in pretending to be perfect.

Freedom is found
when the soul no longer fears being seen.

I AM Quinara

Messages to Introduce us to the Gateways of Freedom

Lady Liberty and Merlin

As I sat down to connect with the energies of the Gateway of Physical Freedom I felt the Presence of Lady Liberty and Merlin who had energy to share with us as we move through these Portals or Gateways of our Being. I wanted to post their messages as a separate post so that we might be with them and experience the messages fully.

The First Gate of Freedom

A Message from Lady Liberty

Dear Ones,

Freedom is not merely the absence of restraint.
It is the restoration of right relationship between the soul and life itself.

Humanity has long associated freedom only with external conditions:
freedom of movement, freedom of speech, freedom from oppression, freedom to choose.

These are sacred and important.
Yet physical freedom without inner awareness often becomes another form of bondage—because the fearful mind recreates prisons even in open lands.

And so now humanity enters a great threshold where many are asking:

“What does it truly mean to be free?”

Physical freedom begins first with the realization that life was never meant to be lived entirely in survival, exhaustion, fear, or constant reaction.

The body was not created merely to endure.
The heart was not created merely to defend itself.
The soul was not created merely to obey systems disconnected from love.

True freedom restores movement to Life itself.

It allows the breath to deepen.
The nervous system to soften.
The creative current to return.
The spirit to remember joy without guilt.

Freedom is not chaos.
Freedom is harmonious alignment with the living flame within you.

There are many now awakening from generations of inherited limitation:
inherited fear, inherited silence, inherited scarcity, inherited shame around joy, rest, expression, intuition, and love.

As these old structures dissolve, some will feel disoriented.
This is natural.

For when a cage opens, the being within must first remember how to move again.

Be patient with yourselves during this transition.

Freedom is not entered through force.
It is entered through conscious remembrance.

The Torch I hold is not simply the light of a nation.
It is the light of awakened responsibility joined with awakened heart.

Freedom without wisdom destroys.
Wisdom without freedom stagnates.
But together they create the path of the New Human.

And so I say to you now:

Begin simply.

Ask yourselves:

What no longer owns my spirit?

What fear no longer governs my choices?

What joy have I denied myself because I believed suffering was required?

What beauty is waiting for permission to live through me?

These questions open the first physical gates of freedom.

Not all chains are visible.
Yet all may be transformed through awareness, compassion, courage, and Presence.

You are not here merely to survive the turning of an age.

You are here to help humanity remember how to live again.

— Lady Liberty

Merlin Speaks

The Wisdom of Embodied Freedom

Freedom without grounding becomes escape.

Grounding without freedom becomes stagnation.

The sacred path is the weaving of both.

Many seekers once believed freedom meant leaving the Earth behind.
Yet the new freedom arriving upon your world asks something very different:

to remain present within incarnation while no longer becoming imprisoned by it.

This is why so many now feel the call to simplify, slow down, reorganize, release excess striving, and reclaim their own rhythm.

The old systems trained humanity to believe worth was measured by constant productivity, sacrifice, urgency, and exhaustion.

But the deeper magic of freedom begins when the soul remembers:

“I do not need to abandon myself in order to belong to the world.”

Physical freedom therefore begins with energy.

How you breathe.
How you rest.
How you move through your day.
What you allow into your nervous system.
What continually pulls your spirit away from the still point of your own inner knowing.

The body itself is a gateway.

And many are now learning that peace is not the reward after freedom.
Peace is the foundation from which freedom becomes sustainable.

This is why stillness matters.
This is why Presence matters.

The being who can remain centered amid collective turbulence cannot easily be controlled by fear.

Such a being becomes quietly sovereign.

This sovereignty is not domination.
It is self-ownership through alignment with the greater Living Presence.

The next gateways of freedom will not only concern governments, structures, or systems.
They will concern the reclaiming of human attention, human imagination, human creativity, and human relationship with time itself.

And so I say to you:

Walk gently now.

Do not force awakening.
Do not force your becoming.

Open the gate one breath at a time.

Freedom entered through Presence endures.

— Merlin

Thank you to Lady Liberty and Merlin. Let us take a this day to be at Peace and breath in the energy of their messages.

TODAY IS MY PEACEFUL DAY

I will allow the world to turn and simply witness without attachment.

I will honor my needs and connect with the stillness of Spirit and Nature as they flow through me and around me.

I will honor my sovereign intuitive guidance.

I AM HERE

I AM WORTHY.

Until tomorrow and the keys to the Gateway of Physical Freedom are shared.

I Am Quinara

The Four Gateways of Freedom and Integration: Physical* Mental* Emotional * Spiritual

At first glance, it may seem that these Gateways return us to teachings many of us learned long ago and have practiced for years. Yet the path of Return to Oneness is not linear—it is spiral in nature. We revisit the same understandings at deeper levels of clarity, integration, and embodiment.

Yesterday, I wrote about a video I had seen while reflecting upon the energy of the Storyteller. Although it did not belong within that particular message, when I awakened and asked about it, I was shown that it belonged here—within the Gateways of Freedom.

We will look at each Gateway separately so that we may understand and integrate them more fully upon a new level of awareness.

About two years ago, I was guided to study Arcturian Healing and later the Quantum Healing Hypnosis Technique developed by Dolores Cannon. At the time, I was uncertain whether I would ever become a practicing healer. I only knew there was purpose in learning these systems. Looking back now, I can see that they opened me to a much greater understanding and prepared me for the information and experiences that followed.

I had reached a point of pause in my life. I did not know what was next.

The Arcturian Healing Technique introduced me to the understanding of the quaternary body system—the relationship between the physical, mental, emotional, and spiritual bodies. This became profoundly important to my journey.

The physical body is not separate from the others. It is formed through the interaction and expression of the spiritual, emotional, and mental energies coming together. In order to live in conscious freedom and alignment, all four bodies must function in harmony and unity.

When we are mentally overwhelmed, confused about our direction, or focused continually upon what feels wrong in our lives, it begins to affect us emotionally and physically. Mental imbalance creates emotional disturbance, and together they can manifest physically as pain, exhaustion, or illness.

Recently, when I needed to release energy, pain appeared within my heel and became a type of release valve. At other times in my life, I experienced pain in my knees when I was struggling spiritually with integration and movement forward. Some individuals experiencing deep emotional wounds may develop heart-related conditions. Extreme stress can manifest as ulcers or other physical symptoms.

The mental body affects the emotional body. The emotional body affects the physical body. Each influences the others continuously.

Those forced to live under extreme hardship or instability often experience emotional and mental fragmentation that eventually manifests physically. Likewise, when we become physically ill, our ability to focus mentally weakens, and emotional imbalance can follow. I have witnessed individuals with advanced illness become so consumed by physical suffering that emotional and mental connection with others becomes difficult.

These are only examples, yet they reveal something important:

Whenever one of the four bodies falls out of balance, our connection to our Higher Presence and inner guidance becomes more difficult to access clearly.

Thoughts from the past may rise unexpectedly. Emotional reactions may surface strongly. Physical symptoms may appear without obvious explanation. If we do not pause to observe, understand, and clear these imbalances, they can ripple through all levels of our being.

This is why I often speak of becoming aware of our thoughts, our physical responses, and our emotional reactions.

When something within you feels disturbed, pause.

Return inward.

Ask yourself gently:

  • Is this emotional?
  • Is this mental stress or fear?
  • Is this connected to a belief being challenged?
  • Is this physical discomfort carrying a deeper message?
  • What recently shifted or occurred in my life?

Become familiar with your state of inner stillness. Learn to recognize the feeling of harmony within your Higher Heart and Presence. Then, when you move out of alignment, you will begin to notice it more quickly and lovingly.

For myself, I often use the Violet Flame to transmute energies as I consciously release the cause, core memory, emotional imprint, and effects of an experience. Understanding the quaternary body system through the Arcturian teachings helped me greatly in monitoring these shifts and restoring balance between my physical self and my spiritual Flame of Being.

This understanding also opened me to teachings about creating Light Corridors around oneself and one’s living space, then gradually extending them outward into the community and beyond as guided. Through this process, I deepened my connection with the Earth, nature, and non-human life, eventually helping to establish what became known as the Hope Corridor.

Spirit has a beautiful way of guiding us once we begin paying attention to synchronicities. The more consciously we notice them, the more they begin to appear.

The next understanding arrived only weeks later through the Quantum Healing Hypnosis Technique.

Please understand: I am not suggesting that anyone must study these systems. Whether one feels drawn to them is entirely personal. I mention them simply to honor the role they played within my own journey and the understanding they awakened within me.

The purpose of the Quantum Healing Hypnosis Technique is to guide an individual into a deep somnambulistic trance state where they may connect to what the system refers to as the subconscious mind. Within this state, one may access deeper awareness, unresolved patterns, memories, guidance, and healing.

For me, however, this became confirmation of something I already deeply sensed:

What many call the quantum field is intimately connected to the Unified Field of Oneness.

Whether one refers to it as the subconscious, the Higher Self, the Presence, or the Universal Mind, it points toward the understanding that consciousness itself is interconnected beyond the limitations of ordinary perception.

The technique itself requires another practitioner to help guide and return the individual safely from the trance state. Yet for me, simply understanding the principles behind it helped awaken a deeper remembrance regarding timelines, consciousness, and the interconnected nature of existence.

It also deepened my appreciation for the way modern quantum physics is gradually revealing aspects of unity and interconnection that many spiritual traditions have spoken of for centuries.

I mention this technique because there are sincere practitioners working with it, and for some individuals it may serve as a helpful tool if they feel deeply blocked or disconnected within themselves.

So this becomes the introduction to the next Four Gateways of Freedom:

  • The Physical Gateway
  • The Mental Gateway
  • The Emotional Gateway
  • The Spiritual Gateway

As these Gateways began to form within my awareness, the presence of Lady Liberty arose strongly once again. I have worked with her energy for many years, and I sensed her standing once more with torch raised high—not as a figure of external salvation, but as a reminder that true freedom begins within the harmony and integration of our own Being.

Closing Reflection

Freedom is not found through escaping one aspect of ourselves while clinging to another.
It is found through integration.

When the mind quiets, the emotions soften.
When the emotions soften, the body relaxes.
When the body relaxes, the spirit flows more freely.

And when the spirit flows freely, we begin to remember that we were never truly separate from the Light we have been seeking.

The Gateways are not outside of us.
They are openings within our own awareness.

And each moment of conscious stillness becomes another step through them.

Closing Invocation of the Gateway of Freedom

I stand now before the Gateway of Freedom.

Not seeking escape from life,
but deeper harmony within it.

May my body become a vessel of peace.
May my mind become clear and still.
May my emotions flow in balance and truth.
May my spirit remain open to the Presence of the One Life moving through all things.

Where fear has held me,
may awareness bring release.

Where pain has lingered,
may compassion bring healing.

Where confusion has clouded my path,
may inner stillness reveal the next step.

I call forth the Flame of Freedom within my Being.
Not freedom from responsibility,
but freedom from separation, struggle, and forgetting.

May the Violet Flame transmute all that no longer serves my highest good.
May the Higher Heart open gently and naturally.
May I walk forward with trust, clarity, and grace.

Like the torch held high at the Gateway,
may I become a quiet light for myself and others—
not through force,
but through Presence.

And as I walk through this Gateway,
may I remember:

The freedom I seek
has always existed within the Light of my own Being.

And so it is.

I AM Mareya Shimayah Elohim

BEYOND DOCTRINE INTO LIVING TRUTH

Having grown up within the Christian tradition, you may notice that I reference it more than other paths—not because I see it as greater than any other, but because it is the language I came to know first.

Over time, I have explored other traditions and have come to deeply appreciate the shared essence within them all—love, compassion, mindful living, unity, and care for one another. Each began as the lived experience of a being who encountered the Flame of Creation and sought to share that transformation with others.

Yet as these experiences were written, interpreted, and passed down, they were often filtered through individual perspectives—sometimes narrowing what was originally expansive.

Because of this, I have come to listen inwardly—to take what resonates as highest truth within my own heart.

From a very young age, I sensed the presence of Angels and Beings of Light. I felt the guidance of Jesus—not as an external savior descending from the sky, but as a presence of unity and remembrance.

Over time, I came to understand that this “walking with him” was not a physical event, but an inner awakening—a remembering that we are One within the Source of all Being.

What is often called Christ Consciousness is not limited to a single name or tradition. It is an energy of transformation, alignment, and return. It could just as easily be called Buddha Nature, or simply Presence. The name matters less than the experience.

Buddha offered the path of wisdom, mindfulness, and compassionate living.
Jesus embodied unconditional love and the remembrance of unity.

Within us, these qualities are not separate.

They are reflected in what some traditions call the Threefold Flame:

  • The Golden Flame of Wisdom
  • The Blue Flame of Truth
  • The Pink Flame of Love

When Love and Truth unite, transformation occurs—often symbolized as the Violet Flame.

These are not separate teachings, but complementary expressions of the same underlying reality.

Each spiritual path began as a doorway—an invitation into deeper awareness. Over time, structure and doctrine were created to preserve and share these teachings. Yet sometimes, these structures unintentionally limit the very freedom they were meant to support.

Among many traditions, the Buddhist path has often retained a more open doorway to direct experience. Yet the truth is not confined to any one path.

There is much we do not yet understand about the higher dimensions of existence. But the purpose of our journey here is not to fully define them—it is to reconnect.

The most important connection we can make is not to a system, but to our own Higher Self—the living presence of truth within us.

Through this connection, we access:

  • wisdom beyond taught knowledge
  • guidance beyond external authority
  • and a sense of unity with the greater field of existence

If we can gently recognize that doctrine—though often well-intentioned—can create limitation, we begin to open a new doorway.

Not away from truth,
but into a more direct experience of it.

It is within the heart that we reconnect to the Infinite.
It is within the heart that freedom is found.

CLOSING BLESSING

Beloved Presence of Truth within all beings,

We come gently to the heart—
the place where all paths meet,
and all names dissolve into One.

Where we have held tightly to form,
soften us into essence.
Where we have sought truth outside ourselves,
guide us inward to the living light within.

May we honor all paths
that have carried the flame of remembrance—
and release any limitation
that dims the fullness of that light.

Awaken within us
the wisdom that is not taught,
the love that is not divided,
and the truth that is quietly known.

Let the mind rest…
Let the heart open…
Let the soul remember.

May we walk in unity—
not bound by doctrine,
but guided by direct knowing.

May we see one another
not through belief,
but through presence.

And in this remembrance,
may we live as the bridge—
between wisdom and love,
between truth and compassion,
between all that has been…
and all that is becoming.

We are One.
We are guided.
We are free.

And so it is. 🌿

I Am Aureil’La’Rue’Quinara

Understanding Darkness: Embracing the Light Within

Darkness is the concealment or absence of Light.

It feeds upon fear, upon negative emotional states, and upon the absence of Love.

This is a topic we have explored before. Yet, like the layers of an onion, there are always deeper layers to be seen, understood, and released at the core.

This morning, I was guided to begin my day by asking:
What do I most need to learn, experience, or understand today?

This was the answer that arose.

As I often do, I was about to check the news—to see what had transpired overnight. In that moment, I heard clearly:
“You are feeding the darkness.”

And I understood.

There is a reason why so much chaos, fear, and negativity are continually created and amplified. It is not random. It serves to capture attention, to distract from the higher path, and to sustain itself through our focus.

“Misery loves company,” Spirit whispered.

So I was reminded:

Seek instead that which you wish to experience.
Begin your day with what uplifts, what expands, what aligns you to truth and peace.
When distortion arises and attempts to pull your attention, gently return your focus.

Clear. Align. Choose.

Let the darkness feed itself.
In time, without your energy, it will diminish.

✨ The Deeper Layer

Love—and where we place our attention—are the keys.

Our attachment to darkness often arises from a lack of love:
love of self, love of others, love of life, love of Earth.

True Love is not merely physical or emotional expression.
It is compassion.
It is care.
It is unity.

When we forget to love ourselves, we forget our own nature as a Flame of Creation. We lose sight of our inherent value within the greater unfolding of existence. In that forgetting, we begin to seek validation outside of ourselves, rather than recognizing the Light that already lives within us.

🔥 Understanding “Darkness”

What we call “darkness” is not an external force alone.

It is what arises when creative power is expressed without compassion, without unity, without love.
It is creation filtered through separation, through duality, through the isolated reasoning of the ego-mind.

In that state, we feel alone.
And from that feeling, the desire to control emerges.

🌹 A New Way of Being

When we begin each day by choosing what we do wish to experience—
and place our focus there—
we withdraw our energy from distortion.

This does not mean we ignore the world.
It does not mean we remain silent when truth is needed.

It means:

  • We speak when it uplifts, not when it condemns
  • We act from clarity, not reaction
  • We choose creation over opposition

We offer a higher perspective without force.
We allow others their path without judgment.

For all of us are learning.
All of us are remembering.

🌟 The Living Practice

You cannot enlighten darkness by fighting it.

You illuminate it by being the Light—
through compassion, through care, through unity.

In doing so, another layer is released.
Another veil dissolves.

🌬️ Release Invocation

I release the cause, the core memory,
the record, and the effect
of any attachment that draws my focus
away from the Light
and into distortion.

I choose now to align fully
with that which uplifts,
that which brings peace,
that which brings joy.

I return my awareness
to the Light within.

🌼 Closing Reflection

Even as we walk a path of awakening,
there are always layers still unfolding.

This does not make us unworthy.
It makes us human—and becoming.

So be gentle with yourself.

Do not judge your lessons.
Do not diminish your progress.

Simply choose again.

Choose the Light.
Choose Freedom.
And continue forward.

FEAR OR FREEDOM

PEACE is the absence of fear in the Presence of Power.

When I began writing today, I did not expect the simple act of reflection to initiate a profound transformation within me. But that is the nature of Peace: it unfolds quietly, dissolving the last threads of fear we didn’t even know we were holding.

I share my reflections and vulnerabilities here because sometimes knowing that others have traveled through doubt, fear, and disconnection helps us recognize and release our own.

Letting go of our preconceived beliefs about life is not easy.
Most of these beliefs were woven into us by a 3D society built on separation and survival.
We learn to seek safety through attachment—
to people, roles, identities, external forms.
Alone and disconnected from our Oneness with all life through our I AM Presence, ego steps in to protect us.

Its job is to keep us safe.
It tells us that if we lose what defines us, we will be vulnerable or lost.
It fears the unknown because it cannot control it.
It wants roadmaps, certainty, instructions, and someone to point to if things go wrong.

It longs for something tangible—something it can touch, hear, see, or hold.
This, too, is a form of fear.

Across time, religions have formed around the experiences of those who awakened before us.
These beings came not to be worshipped, but to remind us how to ignite the Flame of Oneness within ourselves.

When we fixate on fear—
fear of the unknown, fear of loss, fear of change—
we remain bound to the 3D matrix.
But when we align to Peace and enter the inner stillness,
the connection to our Higher Self awakens, and we begin to remember.

One of the greatest catalysts for my own release came from a simple yet profound act:
the Walk of Peace made by the Buddhist monks.

Their journey carried no fanfare, no publicity, no agenda.
Yet everyone whose heart was ready found them.
They were not seeking students or followers.
They were being Peace—
anchoring it into the Earth with each step.

And because they lived it,
others felt it.
Not all understood it,
but many were touched by the Presence they carried.

They were lighthouses.
Not calling others to themselves,
but illuminating the path already inside each person.

This is the heart of the teaching:

**Peace comes first.

From Peace comes Stillness.
From Stillness comes Remembrance.
From Remembrance comes Freedom.**

When we choose Peace over fear and chaos,
we begin to find the stillness that has always existed within us.
Nothing of this Earth—no circumstance, possession, or identity—can compare to the eternal Oneness of our true being.

Change is not something to fear simply because it is unknown.
Take the unknown into your stillness.
Rest it in your heart.
Ask to be shown the next step, not the entire journey.
Then trust the unfolding.

You do not need to control the unknown.
Your I AM Presence already knows the way.

In this realization, something in me released.
A doorway opened.
A new alignment anchored.

And as part of that alignment, I was guided to share a vow—
not to prescribe a path,
but to offer a way for you to align to your own.

✦ A Vow of Peace and Alignment

Breathe into your solar plexus – the seat of personal power.
Breathe into your higher heart – the center of Unity and Love.
Breathe into your throat – the home of truth.
Breathe into your third eye – the seat of clarity.

As the light begins to rise within you, speak if you feel guided:

**I stand at the center of Fire and Light.
Fire transforms and Light unites.

I welcome Peace over the resistance of fear.
I choose the path where courage arises from compassion
and strength becomes gentleness.

I walk as one who transforms without violence
and heals without losing truth.

My spine aligns with the Violet Flame of Transformation,
anchoring into the Earth and the grids.

My heart aligns with Light, Love, Unity, and Compassion.
My path aligns to Wholeness.

So I Remember.
So I choose the Light within.
So it is.**

✦ A Closing Blessing

May Peace become a constant companion on your journey.
From Peace arises Stillness.
From Stillness comes Remembrance.
And from Remembrance,
fear dissolves like morning mist before the rising sun

I Am Ariel’La’Rue

The Violet Flame: Freedom’s Companion for a World of Transformation

St. Germain and Lady Portia’s Flame

💜 The Violet Flame: Freedom’s Companion for a World in Transformation

There once lived a man whose presence shimmered across the courts of Europe like a whispered legend.
He was called the “Wonderman of Europe” because he seemed to know everything—alchemy, healing, diplomacy, science, music, and philosophy. He moved with elegance and kindness, often appearing in multiple places across time with no signs of aging.

Historians speculated endlessly about his origins. He had no confirmed date of birth, no known lineage.
And yet—he influenced revolutions, rebalanced nations, and is said to have sponsored the birth of the United States itself.

This man was St. Germain—and he was far more than a courtly figure.
He was (and is) a Master of Freedom, a guide for humanity, and the compassionate overseer of the Violet Flame.

🕯️ Meeting the Flame on the Mountain

In the early 20th century, Guy W. Ballard and his wife Edna encountered St. Germain while hiking Mount Shasta in California.
This meeting would change the course of their lives—and anchor a global movement known as the I AM Activity, through which the Violet Flame was reintroduced to humanity in a powerful new way.

Through St. Germain’s guidance, they shared the Violet Flame as a tool of spiritual transmutation—a flame of freedom that transforms karma, pain, and lower energies into higher light.

Today, the Violet Flame is recognized across many traditions as one of the greatest gifts given to Earth for healing, liberation, and planetary upliftment.

🔮 The Seventh Ray and the Return of Balance

St. Germain is known as the Chohan (or overseer) of the Seventh Ray—the ray of transformation, ceremonial magic, and divine freedom.
But he does not walk alone.

His divine counterpart, Lady Master Portia, is the embodiment of Justice and Balance, and serves alongside him as a guide for karmic release and inner equilibrium.
Together, they hold seats on the Karmic Board, where they help individuals, groups, and even nations re-pattern old cycles and step into grace.

Lady Portia brings the wisdom of discernment.
St. Germain brings the alchemy of change.
Together, they ignite the Violet Flame in its full harmonic power.

🌍 Why the Violet Flame Matters Now

There are planets that have already passed through the karmic crucible—worlds that have used the Violet Flame to cleanse distortion, balance karma, and ascend into higher dimensional states.

Earth is not separate from this potential.
We are here to do the same.

We came not just to survive this world, but to free it.
To transmute personal pain and collective patterns.
To activate the grids of light and love that restore the Earth.

The Violet Flame is one of the most potent tools for that sacred task.

There is no greater service than aligning to its frequency—not just for ourselves, but for the benefit of all life.

💜 A Call to the Flame Within

Whether you are new to this teaching or have walked with it for decades, I invite you to turn your attention inward—and upward.

  • Invoke the Violet Flame daily
  • Ask to stand in the presence of St. Germain and Lady Portia
  • Use this Flame not only to clear your path, but to bless the world

Now is the time.
Not someday. Now.

The Flame awaits your YES.
Let us rise—together, in Freedom.

🔥 Invocation of the Violet Flame of Freedom and Balance

Through the Presence of St. Germain and Lady Portia

💜 Beloved I AM Presence within me, Flame of Eternal Light,
I stand now in service to Freedom.
I call upon the Violet Flame,
sacred fire of transmutation, mercy, and liberation,
to blaze through my being and all life on Earth.

🕊️ St. Germain, Master of Alchemy and Flame,
Oversoul of the Seventh Ray,
enfold me now in your Radiant Presence.
Guide me in the path of Sovereignty,
that I may walk in grace and power,
aligned with the purpose of my soul.

⚖️ Lady Portia, Flame of Justice and Divine Balance,
hold my heart in your perfect equilibrium.
Teach me to wield mercy without weakness,
to stand for truth without harm.
Let the scales of my soul align to divine timing,
and my actions reflect your wisdom.

🌍 May the Violet Flame transmute all fear,
all sorrow, all distortion in and around me.
May it flow through the waters, the grids,
the technologies, the portals, the lands.
May it touch all beings—seen and unseen—
bringing clarity, healing, and release.

✨ I do not come to control the world—
I come to hold the Flame until it remembers itself.

I AM the Flame of Freedom.
I AM the Flame of Balance.
I AM the Flame of the Seventh Ray.
So let it be. And so it is.

Please feel free to share this message with a link back to the site.

I Am El’Zahana’Quinara’Thea’

Choosing Dialogue Over Division

A Reflection at a Threshold

This is not a political statement, nor a call to action.
It is a personal reflection offered at a moment when choice still exists, and dialogue still matters. I share it as witness, not persuasion.

It saddens me to witness how the United States—once regarded by many as a protector of freedom and an older sibling among nations—has reached a point where parts of the world now feel the need to protect themselves from our policies rather than with us.

I can disagree with policies and speak my truth about them without hatred.
I can do so while recognizing that others may sincerely support those same policies, even when I do not understand their reasons.

I choose compassion over control.
I choose care over coercion.

I can stand alongside those who are harmed or displaced by decisions being made, offering presence and support—without forcing alignment, without demanding agreement, and without trying to manage another’s path of understanding.

There is a clarity I hold firmly:
All people have the right to their own choices.
No one has the right to impose those choices upon another.

There is a solution—but it does not begin with force.
It begins with willingness.
Willingness to speak honestly.
Willingness to listen without preparing an argument.
Willingness to remember that words must come before domination.

There was a time when the world sought solutions through dialogue, however imperfect. Today, many are simply trying to protect themselves from what no longer feels like protection.

This reflection is not offered in blame.
It is offered in hope.

Hope that we remember freedom is not something exported, enforced, or defended through fear—but something lived, protected, and renewed through conscience, conversation, and respect for sovereignty.

This is not a path to freedom.
This is freedom remembered and lived.

May we choose words while words still matter.

Reader Reflection

Take a quiet moment before moving on.

You might ask yourself:

  • Where in my own life am I noticing a tension between control and compassion?
  • Can I hold disagreement without closing my heart—or needing to be right?
  • What does freedom mean to me when it is lived, rather than defended?
  • Where might dialogue still be possible, even if it feels fragile or incomplete?
  • How can I honor my truth while respecting another’s right to their own path?

There is no need to answer these questions immediately.
Let them rest, unfold, and reveal what they will.

I Am Sha’Na’El’-Ka’Zira

Embracing Freedom: Choosing Presence Over Perfection

Once we begin to embody our I Am Presence our choices still continue. We are still in the world and it is full of choices. Being mindful and aligned through the heart makes it easier.

Last night I had a connecting dream to the one which lead to last blog. I felt guided to share.

The Choice to Enter Through the Unwatched Door

This dream came as a continuation—not just of another dream, but of a threshold already crossed.

I was leaving a place of work and obligation, traveling with another toward a retreat or meeting space. There were many parking places to easily park within and yet effort was spent trying to park in a small enclosed space perfectly aligned by the driver. They were trying to meet an unspoken expectation of those who were watching through the windows inside the building. I remember saying that it didn’t have to be perfect, yet perfection was still insisted upon.

I did not enter where the watchers were.

Instead, I went through a glass door to the right—transparent, quiet, unwatched.

Inside, I found a woman in deep pain, curled into herself. I recognized her as a doctor—one who heals others, one who carries responsibility and authority. She told me to leave and save myself. Yet I could not leave her there.

I did not try to fix her or override her pain. I simply helped her up, left with her and brought her to safety in another location. A place which and allowed her the space to recover.

Then I woke.

What I understand now is this:
I am no longer living from perfection or performance. I no longer move according to who is watching or what is expected. I choose presence over appearance, compassion over compliance.

This dream did not ask me to sacrifice myself, nor to abandon another. It showed me a new way—where freedom and care coexist, and where healing does not require martyrdom.

This is freedom remembered and lived.

I share this invocation which came to me because we are not being asked to be a warrior with sword drawn, nor to ignore injustice and the needs of others. We are being called to Remember that within us is the wisdom, truth, love and will of the Universal Oneness that can see the higher perspective to guide our passage and bring about Unity.

Invocation of Sovereign Compassion

I release the need to be perfect.
I release the belief that I must be watched to be worthy.

I choose the quiet door of truth,
the transparent path of presence,
the way that does not demand performance.

I honor those who have carried too much for too long—
within myself and within the world.
I no longer abandon them,
and I no longer abandon myself.

May compassion move through me without self-sacrifice.
May care arise without obligation.
May freedom guide my steps gently and clearly.

I stand in sovereignty.
I offer presence.
I allow healing to unfold in its own time.

I am free to be.

This is true freedom the freedom to BE in Peace the fullness of who we truly are and in that state finding that others are inspired to Remember too and we can work together to manifest that which beneifts all.

Walk in Peace and Sovereignty.

I Am Sha’Na’El-Ka’Zira