Today I was in a contemplative mood as I awoke. I was thinking about the past and the choices I had made and the results they had brought into my life. A song kept playing in my head sung by Frank Sinatra, “Regrets, I’ve had a few, but then again too few too mention. I did what I had to do and followed through without exemption. I planned each chartered course, each careful step along the byway, but more much more than this I did it my way”
For some this may mean they took control of everything around them to make things work the way they wanted, including people. They were the boss. For some that is the interpretation. For me it is different. Choices like energy are neither good or bad, it is the energy we then manifest because of that choice that determines the karmic ramifications.
We come into this life with a plan. We decide where we will be born, the family into which we will be born which have certain circumstances of possibilities and challenges. Some are spiritual family to whom we have agreements to help each other with our karmic clearing and personal missions. Some might be people we have harmed karmically in another life to whom we want to make amends. However, the key is we come in knowing a veil of amnesia about all of this will fall upon birth. Children still have the ability to connect to guidance when they are born until their parents and other authority figures telll them these guides or what they sense and hear isn’t real and they turn it off.
Once that guidance is turned off unless they have chosen an awoke family they are being led by others to determine how to perceive and believe which will affect their choices, their spiritual growth and mission and their life outcome.
Now to clarify again no choice is bad or good unless you make it so. Let us take an extreme example. For instance you may choose to believe that a person is the devil or satan. It is your right to believe that whether that is truth or not on a Divine level. However, it is how you choose to handle that information and choice that determines your future. You may say, I am going to develop my intuitive abilities to become a beacon of light so that ones may see this person for who they truly are by having an example of he Light from which to distinguish the difference. This might be your mission all along. To be inspired to become the I AM Presence you truly are.
You might put the information to the side and ignore it and one day you may find along your path you have a differnt perspective of that person for both of you have changed. You might decide it is your job to eradicate this devil and you become a killer and end up in jail for the rest of your life having killed another because of a belief, whether true or not. You may be thinking well that is a bad choice.
From a Divine perspective it is not the best choice for your highest good or the highest good of all life. However, perhaps in some life in the past the ‘devil’ had killed this person and they had agreed to correct that karma with this act to balance the energy. Each having learned the lesson of what it means to kill another because of a belief or feeling and what that feels like and means to them. The choice being a karmic fulfillment and lesson learned.
However, this doesn’t mean that killing another or haming them by abuse, control or any other means is the best choice for yourself or humanity. It means that we make a choice and once made our actions determine what we experience perhaps not just in this life time but in ones to come.
Remember this was an extreme example to help make a point. The veil was a part of human life on earth so that we would make the choice to follow the spiritual path and grow to reconnect with our inner divine guidance without misusing our greater gifts of co creation. At our Higher Self level we have the ability to sing worlds into creation. What if that person who killed the ‘devil’ had been born with this memory?
Well, they may have become enlightened and been the person who inspired others or they may have become crazy enough to try to control the world like a ‘Hitler’. So it was decided to limit our memory and access to our higher abilities until we had grown spiritually as an individual. It is bad enough the chaos we create by our choices without access to these gifts. SImply look around you. There are wars and rumors of wars, abuse, hoarding and faminine, neglect, pollution, anger, fear the list goes on and on. If we had our full abilities we would perhaps have destroyed the world already.
Choices are learning tools. That is why they are not good or bad. What did Sinatra sing” I did what I had to do and saw it through without exemption”. I have always thought of myself as a ‘survivor’. When something knocks me down, I don’t cry poor me. I get up brush myself off and move forward.
My father always said, “We will make the best chioce at this time with the information we have. If it doesn’t work out, we won’t make that choice again.”
Those words ring in my ears as I face choices in my life. Luckily as I made the choice to follow the path of spiritual awakening, I have reconnected with my intuitive guidance more. I have always be an empath who feels the energy of a person or room. I can feel the devil in the room or when it is best to leave and not be somewhere. I have honed that to help in making other choices as well. I also have learned to ask for guidance.
Now higher guides can be distinguished from the astral entities in that they won’t tell you what to do. They must honor our personal sovereignty but they can help us to see the possibilities our choice can bring or what we have contracted to do and this allows us to decide. A choice may mean we will become a spiritual teacher who is well known and on a stage. However, that may not feel comfortable to us at the moment. Do we step out of our comfort zone and move forward adjusting to being in front of groups or stay as a teacher behind the scenes. To step on the stage may also have ramifications if our ego is not under control that can lead us into the ‘messiah’ or ‘guru’ energy of loving attention and adoration of gathering followers. This choice while appearing the best in the beginning could end up as a karmic set back, for we may loose our higher connection and begin to teach from our ego level to keep followers supporting us.
That can help you see how a choice may appear good but if the actions that follow are not pure it can end up not being the highest choice. That same person could have chosen to wait until they had their ego under control and never have accumulated karma. The choice to keep teaching behind the scenes may not have brought glory personally or riches but what they shared may have been a turning point that enlightened many teachers who changed the world.
Choice was given so that we could move far from the Divine Source of Unity until we had enough and choose to return to Unity. Once upon a time, Source said “What if?” and it set choice in motion. This we will discuss another time but , “What if?” is the choice we have to make on a daily basis.
Therefore, be honest with yourself as to why you are choosing to do a particular thing. Then, do it gladly, knowing that you are always getting to do what you want. The statement “I have no choice” is a lie. You can choose. You simply do not prefer the alternatives available to you, for whatever reason. So you select the outcome that you most prefer.” Neale Donald Walsch
So dear one – no matter what you think the choice is yours. I usually try to get out of my head and into my heart. How does it feel? Does it bring peace and joy? Does it stir my emotions with fear, anger, unsettling desire to take action and control of others?
As I finish this I was hearing the quote of the Templar Knight in the ” Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade” in which the Holy Grail is among a number of chalices being guarded by the Knight. He does not tell them which is the real grail they must choose. The one man chooses a glowing golden cup and he dies when he drinks from it. Indiana Jones chooses the one which is simple and it saves his father. The knight simply says , “He chose poorly and you have chosen wisely.”
May you choose wisely from your heart and if not, at least you did it your way.
I Am Sha’Na’El’-Ka’ZIra
Oracle of Divine Grace 