shadow self – Oracle of Divine Grace

I AM ENOUGH

Self Love and Acceptance are the Keys

Sometimes we don’t fully realize what it is in our life which is holding us back from fully experiencing life, joy, and Being at one with our I Am Presence and our dreams. We don’t understand how we are trained to look for what is wrong with us, instead of what is right. This happens in order to change, or hide the ‘wrong’ parts to be loved, accepted and rewarded by our parents, family, friends and society.

Yet, WHO originally decided what is acceptable and unacceptable. These rules of training and controlling us to conform in order to be loved and accepted. These rules are passed down from generation to generation, through rewards and punishment training. If we want to be loved, accepted and succeed in life we must conform to the determined proper behavior patterns.

This is not an advocation for doing anything that harms another, through verbal or physical abuse or violence in any form. These actions are covered under universal laws of cause and effect, karma. It means we need to look inside and connect with our soul to see what is right for us. Look inside of our hearts to ask for guidance in how to live, experience and expand our creative process in the world. It means seeking a new way of teaching our children how to live and experience the world.

If you watch any of the zoo programs that are available on television you would notice that often they have to train an animal to go into a travel box in order to have medical procedures or to travel to another location. When they train an animal they do not do so with punishment but with rewards only. If an animal chooses not to participate they don’t try to force it, but allow it to leave and attempt the process another day, when it is the choice of the animal to participate.

In the animal world if they are wounded they will naturally go to a safe place to try to heal. If approached by a person or another animal, they will either withdraw more or lash out in fear in order to protect themselves from futher harm. We do that also, if our feelings, thoughts or emotions are hurt or threatened we either withdraw or lash out. Depending on how we were trained or our experiences in life. Either way we build our protection around our hearts, minds and emotions in order to protect them from further hurt and pain. We create a wounded child within us or a shadow part, that we keep locked up in the dark. If we don’t look at it we don’t have to deal with it, yet it affects us and our choices. We build walls around our hearts to protect us from hurt and pain.

Children instead of rewards or punishment need to be taught to be safe and their personal interests and abilities encouraged to develop. We need to teach them they are loved unconditionally and help them to develop their personal relationship within to the Creator Source. This will help them to know they are always loved, guided and protected. They will not need to hide who they are from others for they will know ‘ THEY ARE ENOUGH’.

For me personally I had to work with this energy to realize that ‘I AM ENOUGH’. I have felt for a few years that I was hitting a brick wall in my moving forward with the spiritual work I had contracted to do in this life. I had broken through, or so I thought, the block that was holding up my spiritual development but not the moving out into the world that was needed.

I was given the message recently that ’I AM ENOUGH’ and to search within for the ‘heart wound’ that had built up walls in my heart, and blockages to my gifts. This was preventing me from connecting fully with my I AM Presence. This was causing me to shut off certain experience out of fear or hurt or believing I was not enough to do what was needed. There was a belief that there was something lacking within me.

I had created a wounded child within, a shadow self, that I didn’t want to look at because it would hurt, and so I thought I was protecting it by locking it in a dark room within myself. However, no child likes the dark and cries with pain to be heard and to see the light, not understanding what it did wrong. Yet, how could I help when I didn’t understand myself. Much like our parents believe they are doing the right thing for their children because that was how they were raised.

Then last night came the breakthrough. I had asked my guides to help me to release the fears, pain and shadows to heal the wounded parts of myself so we could come together in unity. In my last dream before awaking, I was shown what I needed to see and understand.

First, I was with a spiritual teacher I had many years ago, who had taught me to accept and expand my spiritual gifts. For the first time in my life, I had felt that the Creator had forgiven me for whatever had caused me to be abandoned here on earth. I was doing spiritual work on the grids and learning so much. I felt good about myself and being of service, that there was much more to come and then it ended. The teacher was gone and again I felt abandoned by the Creator. I didn’t trust my gifts for they had led me to this situation. I retreated and put the spiritual gifts into the closet with the abandoned child in the dark. There was something wrong with me and I retreated.

Then,it was what appeared to be New Years Eve, ‘New Year – New Me’ and I was in a town by the ocean. I was walking along the pier and I saw adults standing in line waiting to partake of a feast and celebrate but none of them had their children. I was inspired to create a party in the back yard of the home in which I was living, with lights and a feast for the children to celebrate and watch the fireworks over the ocean. They played and laughed in the lights and celebration and I awoke with the words, “I AM ENOUGH” filling my head and heart.

I had released the child within me to celebrate the New Year and to become one with me – the New Me. No more standing in line and doing the expected in life. I am free to celebrate and experiences all the parts of me, as I feel directed.

As I sat quietly upon awaking, I realized how I had looked for validation for myself spiritually outside instead of within, and it was part of my growth to learn that this is ego based to look outside for validation. I needed to remember what I had learned, that in coming to earth I knew that I would have amnesia in regards to my connection to the Creator. I was never abandoned, I had simply forgotten that I was part of the Creator and never alone. Once I reconnected to my soul and allow my soul to guide me, I am never alone or unsafe.

I was reminded there are signs all around me everyday from the Universe trying to get my attention and send me messages and answers to my questions. Love brings light to remove the darkness and shadows. It heals the heart and wounds of the child within to know I am not alone, I am not abandoned, I am enough and loved unconditionally. I don’t need walls anymore to keep me safe from hurt. I can drop my defenses and know that all I need is within my heart.

Our soul is always conencted to Source, even when we face difficult people, situations and choices. To remember not to allow others to determine who you are of what you should do, for they see life from their training, experience, beliefs and perspective. Neither try to change them, but allow them their beliefs and know the Divine is within them, knocking on the doors of their hearts and sending them signs from the Universe and when they are ready they will open their hearts and minds.

The options we have are experinces , we need but unlock the self imposed cages to answer the heart call. No one needs to be wrong for us to be right. Those who trained us in our youth did the best they knew, but that doesn’t mean we need to continue the pattern. When we realize that it no longer serves us the door closes, and a new one opens that leads to freedom, inspiration, exploration, expansion and creativity. Release the Judgment of self and others and trust the heart. It is time to stop over analyzing, and simply follow that which brings you joy and relish the experience and avoid repeating the choice that bring pain and hurt.

The experience with the teacher taught me I have gifts but they come from within and that is where the validation of who I am exists, not outside. The outside validation comes from ego searching to be something more in the physical world which is created by less than the Divine. Due to my training in life I thought I had done something wrong, when in reality the Divine was removing me from a situation in order to bring me to a new level.

Instead, I retreated, into a long ‘dark night of the soul’. It has taken me years to close that door, and open the door to let the light into the shadows and embrace unconditionally my inner child with love. ”I AM ENOUGH”. There is nothing I need to do in order for the Creator to love me, for I am part of the Creator and always loved. It was my choice to come into this place of amnesia, I wasn’t forced. The Universal Oneness has always been sending me messages of love and encouragement, I only have to go within to hear.

It was not that I had not know all of this from a intellectual and even intuitive level, it was that my pain was not allowing me to fully embody it and release the blockages I had built. Now I can. Thus as the title of the Blog states, I AM ENOUGH and YOU ARE ENOUGH. It is time for us to accept this and take back our power and authority in our lives, to create a better future.

YOU ARE LOVED UNCONDITIONALLY – when we hold this realization in our hearts, that the Creator of ALL LIFE loves us no matter what, unconditionally, and we are never alone. The process begins.

If you have any questions please feel free to email me at oracleofdivinegrace@gmail.com

I AM Mareya Shimayah Elohim

Reflections

Seeing from a higher perspective.

In the 1970’s there was a gospel pop song, which became #2 on the billboard charts, it was by Gene MacLellan and called “Put Your Hand in the Hand”. I heard that song this morning in my head and was reminded of a particular line in the song that goes, “Take a look at yourself and you can look at others differently”. It reminded me of a quote from Dr. Wayne Dyer that goes, ” When you change the way you look at things. The things you look at change.” They don’t actually change, it is your perception of them which is changing.

“The shadow is a moral problem that challenges the whole ego-personality, for no one can become conscious of the shadow without considerable moral effort. To become conscious of it involves recognizing the dark aspects of the personality as present and real. This act is the essential condition for any kind of self-knowledge.”

— Carl Jung, Aion (1951)

We all have learned thoughts, beliefs, opinions, judgments about how to act and think, which guide our life. Some call it the inner parent and others the shadow self. We all have said or done things, or even had thoughts that we immediately or later say, why did I think, do or say that. It makes us feel guilty. In order to be the good child/person, we believe we are, we put it away in a box, and it becomes as a shadow.

However, occassionally we will see this same action or words manifesting through another and it repels us. We find ourselves, either retaliating, getting angry or avoiding this person because we are judging them and their actions as incorrect behavior. Yet, within us we know we have done the same thing, if we only acknowledge it ,and that is why it bothers us so much. A part of us says, “So that is how others saw me” and we stuff that image even lower into the box of shadows. On the other hand, we can address it, release and transform the energy.

That is the point when you look at youself and you can see others differently. You will have begun the process of seeing your actions and their actions from a higher perspective. Once we are able to transform and release these old patterns of behavior, the way we look at that same action or words coming from another, we will now view with compassion for the pain within them which brought this forth. Once it no longer bothers us, we are free. For when we see another who is angry, judgmental, lashing out at others, physically or verbally, we no longer react from a place of learned behavior, but we can allow them their emotions, while introducing compassionate energy that will dissipate the emotional reactions and actions, for one cannot carry on a disagreement or argument if no one wants to argue.

Yes, I know this doesn’t apply to war or physical violence and abuse actions. For this I will share a writing by Carl Sandburg, in 1936

The little girl saw her first troop parade and asked,
“What are those?”
“Soldiers.”
“What are soldiers?”
“They are for war. They fight and each tries to kill as many of the other side as he can.”
The girl held still and studied.
“Do you know … I know something?”
“Yes, what is it you know?”
“Sometime they’ll give a war and nobody will come.”

This was later changed in the 1960, era of peace and love, to “What if they gave a war and nobody came.”

Physical and emotional violence and abuse come from many differing sources. Mental and physical abuse and imbalances they have or have experienced in their lives, which leave one unable to control their impulses without medication or forced restraint Perhaps, they have suffered the same in their early childhood and it has become a learned behavior which is acceptable to them. I know it is more complicated and many factors come into the problems, but this is an essence.

Abuse, violence and war are a need for control and power for ones who either feel powerless or they believe they are entitled to hold power and control over others due to their learned rules of what is ethical.

We cannot change another person, we can only look at ourselves and our issues and face them, release them and transform them. When we are no longer adding to the extreme energies of pain and control in the world, we can begin to send love and the violet flame to transform the energies around the world in order to provide breathing space for others to look at what they are doing. We can ask that the Hosts and myriads of Light Beings come in and bring transformational energies into the world to help relieve the pain and suffering caused by unbalanced thoughts, emotions and actions if ones choose to accept their help.

Many think of Archangel Michael as a soldier who kills those who don’t do what God says. In actuality, He is the bringer of DIVINE TRUTH. The sword he carries is the sword of TRUTH. When we are surrounded in TRUTH and LOVE, not shall stand before us in order to harm us.

Once I was taken in meditation by Archangel Michael to a planet in another star system of our Universe. Archangel Michael has been with me all my life. As we stood upon the planet he asked me if I remembered being there with him before. I looked around and suddenly I had a memory of walking with him, and we were radiating Love, Light, Compassion and carrying the Swords of Truth. We did not fight a single being, we simply sent forth these divine energies and spoke the Truth to others. Sharing compassion and help as ones were open, we allowed the Violet Fire of transformation to heal the planet and set the people free. Then a point came where they could do this for themselves and they transformed and freed their world.

I seemed to have gotten side tracked a bit, but not in actuality. All that we see in the world which bothers us is because there is something within us to which we need to look, balance and transform. Otherwise , we would see all the world with the eyes of innocent perception, meaning that all we see and experience in this world is a lesson to be learned for ourselves or another. Often we have come to play the protagonist, agreeing to do so, in order that others can be set free from their judgments and imbalances.

All that exists is part of the Creator which is love, some call this essence adamantine particles. What happened with Archangel Michael was not about loving those who we were the protagonists upon that planet, but to be the Essence of Creation, Love and Being One with the Source of Love the Creator. When Jesus told people to Love their enemies he did not mean they should become weak or passive, but to learn to become who we truly are a part of the Creator, who is the Essence of Creation, Love. Love is not about desires and pleasures, it is about the Essence of Creation, becoming one with it and then the energy of Creation is at your command.

You could turn around a storm by Being the Essence of Love, which would bring you into Unity with the Essence of the Storm and then command it. There is a story in one of the Volumes of “The Life and Teachings of the Masters of the Fart East”, I believe it is volume 3. The essence of the story is that Jesus was at a monastery in a town studying and teaching, during his missing years. Suddenly the town’s people became upset and were running in fear. When he asked what was wrong he was told that the hordes (mongol forces) were coming to loot and destroy the village. Jesus told the people not to fear and he walked to the edge of the cliff where the horde were coming through a pass to climb to the village. When he saw them he raised his hand and the horses bolted, throwing off the riders who fled in fear. He was radiating the essence of Divine Love, no horrible energy of destruction, but when their duality of anger came upon the essence of love, it was like an inpenatrable wall they could not cross.

This brings me back to the words of the young girl, “Sometime they’ll give a war and no one will come.” I read a remark about this quote where someone said that we had to go to war to prevent it from coming to us. Why. because we live in a world of duality and we believe that without guns and instruments of destruction and warriors to fight we will all be killed, so let us kill them first. The truth is that as long as you believe that, you remain powerless and that is your truth.

The moment you step into love, and unity with the Essence and Creator, you can command the elements for you are one with them. You are protected and you have no need to fear another, for they cannot harm you.

“The only thing we have to fear, is fear istself. ” Franklin D Roosevelt

Fear is learned behavior which keeps us limited by our beliefs. When we “LET GO” and Let the Divine within us manifest, we have nothing to fear. We have no need to get mad, to judge another, to abuse or kill for we understand that if they knew better they would not do that which they are doing.

Thus we first must change our perceptions, release and transform our shadows. We do not need fear to face them for they are a part of you that has tried to keep you safe in a dualistic world as best they could. Know you simply need to love them and help those thoughts and beliefs to let go of a need to fear and control. Then as you perceive these traits in others you will come to understand, ‘There but for the Grace of the Creator was I”. Then be love and thankful for now I AM One with the Essence of all LIfe.

Divine Grace is the divine influence which when we turn within for our guidance and direction instead of without, grace operates to transform us, guide us, sanctify our impulses to be more loving and gives us strength to face all challenges with Loving understanding from a higher perspective.

The other part of ourselves that created the shadow is the inner parent or authority figure. All that we believe, our fears and judgments are learned and instilled within us by our parents and authority figures to whom we gave that right to tell us how to think, act and believe. We need to look at those aspects and to take back authority for ourselves and our intent and initative of actions. This restores this authority and initiative to the I AM essence of the Creator who is within us and whom we truly are not the physical body and rational mind. They are merely the tools through which we entered to operate in this world, and are meant to serve the direction and authority of our soul, our I AM Presence, that which is the Essence of Love and Unity with all Life.

So all that we experience is a reflection on the outer of that which exists within us. When we no longer wish to experience the same old thing it is time to look within at ourselves, and begin the process of releasing the past and loving the Essence of who we truly are.

“As a person loves, so they are. As a person believes so they become.”

I Am Moriah Elohim