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Part 3 – Hidden in the Depths

Sometimes we simply need to step away from our everyday routines and lose ourselves in a story.

Most of us have done it at one time or another—curling up on a rainy afternoon or a cold winter evening to watch an old favorite.

For me, the next piece of this unfolding journey came through an old movie my husband had watched years before. He suggested we watch it together, so one Saturday evening we settled in, expecting nothing more than an enjoyable film.

Instead, another layer of the veil quietly lifted.

The movie was called Goliath Awaits.

It tells the story of a luxury cruise liner torpedoed during World War II. The ship sank and disappeared beneath the ocean, lost for more than forty years.

Eventually, a research vessel discovered the wreck.

As divers approached, they heard something impossible.

Someone was tapping out an SOS from inside the ship.

Curious, they carefully cleared the thick layer of marine growth covering one of the portholes. Suddenly, the hatch swung open.

A young girl looked out in surprise…

…then quickly closed it again.

A rescue mission began.

To everyone’s astonishment, they discovered that an entire society had survived within a sealed section of the ship.

Over the decades they had built a functioning community.

There was order.

Everyone had work.

Each person contributed according to their role, and those roles had passed from one generation to the next.

At first glance, it seemed remarkable.

Yet beneath the surface another reality slowly emerged.

The society was ruled through fear.

Those who questioned authority disappeared.

Those who rebelled were eliminated.

Those who became ill or could no longer contribute were quietly removed because they were considered a burden on the community.

The outward appearance of harmony concealed an undercurrent of violence that many had learned to ignore simply to survive.

As the rescuers uncovered the truth, they also discovered something else.

The leaders had no desire to be rescued.

They wanted to preserve the world they controlled.

They warned everyone about the dangers of the surface world, convincing many that remaining below was safer than risking the unknown.

Yet the irony was heartbreaking.

The ship itself was dying.

Its power source was failing.

Time was running out.

Still, those in authority denied reality because acknowledging it would mean surrendering the control they had spent decades protecting.

When the opportunity to leave finally came, some eagerly chose freedom.

Others chose to remain.

Not because they were evil.

Not because they were foolish.

But because the familiar can sometimes feel safer than hope.

Eventually, those who wished to leave were rescued.

Those who remained stayed with the only world they had ever known.

The leaders destroyed what was left of the ship.

As the credits rolled, I found myself sitting quietly.

What surprised me most was not anger.

It was sadness.

I knew the story was fictional.

Yet it didn’t feel impossible.

In many ways, I admired what the survivors had accomplished together. Against overwhelming odds they had built a functioning community through ingenuity, cooperation, and shared purpose.

Working together, humanity is capable of extraordinary things.

We witness it after natural disasters.

During times of tragedy.

Whenever compassion rises above division.

So why does it often take catastrophe to awaken our willingness to care for one another?

Then another realization surfaced.

Just as in the dream…

Just as on the sacred mountain…

There was another hidden world beneath the surface.

Once again, appearances concealed something deeper.

And once again…

The story quietly became about me.

So I sat with the questions that arose.

What am I willing to tolerate, even when my heart knows it is not for the highest good, simply because it offers comfort, safety, or acceptance?

Do I sometimes mistake familiarity for truth?

Do I remain silent because I believe my voice cannot make a difference?

Where is the line between speaking from my Being…

…and interfering with another person’s journey?

Where is the line between helping…

…and trying to rescue?

Have I aligned deeply enough with my own Presence to recognize the difference?

Do I help another because it serves them…

…or because it comforts me?

Do I cling so tightly to what I believe is true…

…that I fail to notice the cracks opening to reveal something even greater?

Do I ever look to another for answers…

…at the cost of my own sovereignty?

Do I fear the unknown so much that I cling to the familiar…

…even when my soul is quietly inviting me into a larger world?

Those questions stayed with me.

They lingered long after the movie ended.

One question, in particular, continued echoing within me.

It eventually led me into a conversation with Isis.

For several days, one phrase had been quietly repeating itself within my thoughts.

The Mystic Is Rising.

The Divine Feminine Is Flowing.

So I finally asked what it meant.

What unfolded next became another layer of this journey.

Perhaps we will explore it together in Part 4.

The Deeper Dive

Part 2 – The Sacred Mountain

Later that day, while I was working, I noticed that one of my favorite storytellers had posted a new YouTube video. I had reached the point where my mind needed a break, so I settled in to watch, not realizing it would become another piece of the puzzle that had begun with my dream.

The story followed two young men whose friend had left home after telling his family he felt called to a sacred mountain. Concerned for his safety, his parents asked the young men to find him and bring him home.

They discovered him in a mountain region that many spiritual traditions considered holy.

At the foot of the mountain was a small village filled with shops, books, and people eager to share their beliefs. Higher up the mountain were others who had chosen a different path. They lived simply, camping among the trees, waiting patiently for a sign that would allow them to enter the mystery they believed lay hidden within the mountain.

Although the two groups lived very different lives, they shared something in common.

Both believed that something extraordinary waited within the mountain.

Both believed they had to become worthy before they could enter.

Some sought worthiness through sacrifice and poverty.

Others through teachings, books, and the outward expression of their beliefs.

Different paths…

The same longing.

When the young men finally found their friend, he refused to leave. Instead, he insisted they continue to the summit, convinced they would understand why he had come.

Reluctantly, they began the climb.

Along the way, they encountered a young woman who had become ill. As they stopped to help her, her brother appeared. Together they carried her back to safety.

After thanking them, the brother and sister quietly disappeared.

When the young men returned to camp, their friend was excited by what they described, yet he still would not leave. They had not reached the summit.

Word quickly spread through the camp and eventually reached the village below.

Soon a crowd gathered, demanding to be shown where this mysterious encounter had taken place.

The young men led them back to the location.

But when the crowd found neither the brother and sister nor the hidden entrance they had expected, disappointment quickly became anger.

Anger became fear.

Fear became violence.

Watching the scene unfold, something unsettled me.

How could people who had devoted so much of their lives to seeking the sacred become so consumed by anger when they did not receive what they expected?

My first response was to judge them.

Then, almost immediately, I realized I was looking into a mirror.

The story was no longer about them.

It had quietly become about me.

So I sat with the questions that began to arise.

Do I seek solitude because I genuinely love stillness…

…or because I am trying to escape the discomfort of seeing parts of myself reflected through others?

Do I truly witness and allow…

…or only until someone believes differently than I do?

When another person’s beliefs challenge my own…

…do I remain in peace?

Do I quietly believe I must still prove my worth?

Do I wear masks I no longer recognize?

Is there any trace of spiritual pride still hidden within me?

Am I searching outside myself for permission…

…to become the Presence I already am?

I didn’t have answers to those questions.

Not yet.

But something had begun to move within me.

The momentum that had started with the dream continued to gather strength, as though each experience was gently removing another layer of volcanic ash that had covered something waiting to be remembered.

That evening, my husband and I decided to watch an old movie called Goliath Awaits.

I had no idea that it, too, would reveal another layer.

Perhaps we will discover it together in Part 3.

Unlocking the Time Portal: A Journey of Rememberance

Time Portal of Rememberance and Unification.

I first apologize for the amount of time which has passed since last posting. This has been a time of REMEMBERANCE and UNIFICATION for me. I have had what was called a time portal in the wetland behind my home. I wasn’t exactly sure what to do with it so I simply protected it and about 6 months ago I was joined by a Yeti guardian to help. I realize now that he appeared at that time because it was time for the portal to be activated and stabalized. It has been in an inversion state for a long time. I didn’t understand the unstable energies, trees dying, intense cross winds and other anomolies over the years.

However, this understanding has been part of the process unfolding through Rememberance. That word Rememberance is the KEY to the portal, this process and unification. There has been so much occurring that I needed to remember, understand, and integrate over the last couple of weeks. It is like all the pieces of a puzzle that have been my life experience are finally beginning to make sense. People I have met, trips I have taken, experiences I have had, information I have gathered, and memories I have had now begin to make sense and fit together.

I had wondered why things weren’t happening they way, I thought they should or with the speed or ease of others. Recently I learned that I had to wait for the correct timing to REMEMBER and UNIFY. For instance, I had wondered why, I have difficulty seeing clearly with my inner sight, when I instinctively know that I could do so in other lifetimes. In fact recently I developed cataracts. I had been getting stronger prescriptions for my reading glasses due to working on a computer and reading a great deal. Then suddenly I could see clearly to read and I thought a miracle had happened. When I went for my yearly examine so proud of myself, they said my far sight was so bad that I wouldn’t be able to pass an eye exam. I hadn’t realized. They said I had cataracts. When I saw the surgeon and explained that my near vision had gotten better, she called it ‘second sight’. That whatever bad vision one had before cataracts corrects itself and the good sight gets bad.

Interestingly, shortly before this I had asked about my inner vision, and I was told that I had shut if off. That I needed to remember why, and only then could I open it again. Now, I was experiencing second sight of seeing close but my far sight was very bad, like my inner vision or clairvoyance. I can see by visualization and impression, but not clearly like seeing a movie. Yet, at times images will clearly superimpose themselves over my visual range just that clearly. My declaration is I have perfect 20/20 vision. This was simply a sign.

Why am I sharing this with you. I have been realizing that it has all been bits and pieces of ‘past lives’ coming, but not understanding the meaning or why I have an experience, until recently.

Perhaps, I need to clarify the portal. At least this time portal is not about moving from one destination or timeline to another. It is about helping one to REMEMBER and UNIFY. It opens the doors to other parts of ourself living in other dimensions and existences. They are not past lives, although to us as we experience time as linear instead of circular or NOW, they seem to be past lives. All the existences we think of as past lives are happening right now, they aren’t in the past. It is just that we have moved from them to this life. We can still connect to them and experience them, change events and integrate them into our NOW. The ‘future’ us is experiencing events to which we can connect and manifest in our NOW. This portal opens the doors to all aspects of ourself so that we can merge and unify in NOW time to do that which is needed to open the portal of Metatronic Spiral to Unification within the ONENESS of Self and ALL Life.

It opens to the Quantuum Field of Existence and Manifestation. We can as we tap into its energy and potential within the Quantum Field of Unity move to other dimensions, existenses and potentials, but we need most importantly and immediatley to focus on this NOW existence and Unifying them within Ourselves. That is the point of being in this life at this time. This is the most important life and you are the ONE for which you have been waiting.

So over the last couple of weeks, I have been connecting to the portal to stabalize the energies and in the process, remembering the bits and pieces of this lifetime and the lifetimes of other aspects of myself to unify, harmonize, balance and create resonance through dimensions into NOW. It is a time portal to I AM through Resonance to the Spiral of Oneness.

I was not to see the future or understand the pieces of the ‘past’ or aspects of myself until the timing was right. Why? Well, I came into this life to learn patience. If I know something my ‘inquisitive mind’ wants to know, understand the full facts and can ‘jump’ the gun and try to take matters into my own hands/rational mind outcome scenario. Plus, that which is hidden to me, was also hidden from those who disrupt or try to control information for a lesser purposes.

I recently was going to a location to active and connect it to the portal. As I approached the location, I began to experience nausea and intense stomach cramps. At first I thought it was something I ate. Then I thought perhaps I was being attacked so I asked for protection, which only made it worse. Then I thought perhaps something was trying to tell me the site or timing was off, so I decided to go back home. After a few hours, when I decided it I should pick another day it got better. When I realized It was not the prime spot and another was better suited, it stopped altogether. Timing and inner direction and resonance are essential in our process. I had let my rational mind pick due to information shared instead of waiting upon clear inner direction.

It was today as I sat with the Portal and aligning more fully with the energies it offers, I realized its true potential as a ‘Time Portal’ was one of Unity into the I AM. As I asked, it was verified by Thoth. I had to stabalize and protect it before I could understand it and this could only happen at the correct time. Before that I wasn’t able to see or understand.

This protected it from my sharing inadvertantly or others of not pure intent picking up on its energy. Once it was protected I could begin not only my own Unification, but Unifying it with other locations around the planet to expand the Gateway of the Divine Feminine opening to the Metatronic Spiral Home for Humanity. I don’t have all the answers about this yet, it is only beginning. I am remembering and awakening to it. I am sharing because these doors are being prepared so that you may walk through them as you are ready.

“Past lives” are really other incarnations of yourself. The name you had, or the position you held only really matters in the context of that which you have learned, cleared, activated and manifest in your spiritual process and mission into Oneness. You are here now to REMEMBER the parts of yourself in order to Unify all parts of yourself in the NOW to the I AM that I AM which you are.

Now as I remember a piece of my ‘past’ whether in this or another life, I am asking what does this mean in the greater scheme of Unification and Ascension. I begin to see the pattern of the work I have done or am doing in other lives which is part of why I am here now and what I am to do. It helps to heal and restore the alignment to the abilities and gifts that have been awaiting my Remembering.

So when you feel you are slow, not good enough, that there is something wrong that you are not doing or understanding, REMEMBER, you are exactly where you should be and doing exactly what you need to do at this time. Be open to and remember the pieces of the puzzle for when you least expect it they will begin to fit and the picture will become clear or at least clearer.

I hope this makes sense to someone besides me. Please feel free to share any experiences you may have or ask questions if you have any.

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I Am Kohlera Rayum