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Coming Home to My Name

This morning I found myself contemplating something that, on the surface, seemed quite simple.

What name should I use for my writing?

Throughout my spiritual journey, I have received and worked with sacred names. Each has carried meaning for me and has helped me recognize another aspect of myself.

One of those names is Quinara, which I understand as Presence.

Another is Sha’Na’El’-Ka’Zira, a name connected to another depth of my spiritual remembering.

Mareya Shimayah Elohim is part of merging the Presence and Form.

These names have been meaningful companions upon my journey. They have helped me explore consciousness, identity, my connection with the Beings of Light, and what I understand as the greater nature of Being.

Yet this morning, as I opened in contemplation with the energy of Isis, another question arose:

What about Becky?

Becky Prante.

The ordinary human name I have carried through this lifetime.

And suddenly I understood something about embodiment that I had perhaps been making much more complicated than it needed to be.

Do Not Abandon the Woman Who Carried You Here

Becky is the woman who actually walked this path.

She lived the experiences.

She raised the questions.

She doubted.

She wondered.

She laughed and cried.

She went to work and handled the ordinary responsibilities of life while somewhere within her the mystic continued whispering.

She walked through forests and felt Merlin.

She entered inner temples and encountered Isis.

She experienced dreams, synchronicities, visions and moments she could not explain.

She followed the breadcrumbs.

She got lost sometimes.

She found the trail again.

And through all of it, she was Becky.

Why, then, would I arrive at the place of embodiment only to leave her standing outside the temple?

That realization touched me deeply.

But there was another realization waiting beneath it.

Why I Hid the Mystic

There was a time when it did not feel safe to let others see this part of me.

When I was younger and spoke about some of my experiences and perceptions, people did not always understand. Sometimes I was laughed at. Sometimes I was talked about as strange.

And so I learned something many of us learn in one form or another:

Hide the parts of yourself that other people might not accept.

The mystical part of me did not disappear.

She simply moved into the shadows.

I continued living my ordinary life while protecting experiences that were deeply meaningful to me from the judgment of those who might ridicule or misunderstand them.

Looking back now, I can see another dimension to the sacred names that eventually came into my life.

They gave the mystic somewhere to live.

As names appeared that connected me more deeply with the Beings of Light and with my own Presence, I felt freer to explore those relationships.

Quinara could enter places Becky had learned to approach cautiously.

Sha’Na’El’-Ka’Zira could speak a language the everyday Becky had once been afraid to speak aloud.

Those names helped strengthen my connection with the sacred while, in a very human way, keeping Becky safe.

I honor them for that.

I honor the woman who found a way to continue exploring the mystery without exposing a tender part of herself before she was ready.

But something has changed.

I No Longer Need to Hide

This may be one of the most important realizations of my journey into embodiment:

I no longer need to hide who I am.

You may understand my experiences.

You may not.

You may find resonance in the way I perceive life, consciousness and the unseen.

You may think I am strange.

And, finally, I can say:

That is okay.

If you think I am weird, then perhaps that is simply who I am within your perception of me.

It does not change who I am.

If you love what I share, wonderful.

If you don’t, that is okay too.

Neither response determines my truth or my worth.

I do not need another person’s acceptance in order to give myself permission to exist openly.

And I do not need to convince anyone that my experiences mean what they mean to me.

That is freedom.

The Temple Does Not Require Me to Leave My Human Name at the Door

For much of our spiritual journey, we may look toward something greater than ourselves.

Our Higher Self.

Our Presence.

The Divine Feminine or Divine Masculine.

Angels, masters, guides or whatever language speaks to our own understanding of the sacred.

We reach upward.

We expand.

We remember.

But perhaps eventually the journey changes direction.

Instead of continually reaching toward the Divine, we begin allowing what we have discovered to live through the human being who is already here.

Perhaps that is embodiment.

Can Becky enter the temple?

Can Becky hold the staff?

Can Becky walk with Merlin through the forest?

Can Becky sit with Isis?

Can Becky dance and laugh with St. Germain?

Can Becky experience the extraordinary while remaining completely, wonderfully human?

Yes.

And perhaps the greater question for me has become:

Can Becky tell you about it without first wondering what you will think of her?

Yes.

That may be one of the Gateways I have finally walked through.

The Mystic Does Not Need to Replace the Woman

Recently I realized that something had gone missing from my writing.

Magic.

In trying to make my work clear and understandable to a wider audience, I had gradually polished away some of the very thing that made it mine.

The mystic disappeared.

The storyteller became a teacher.

The wonder became explanation.

And eventually I stopped wanting to write.

Now I understand why.

In trying to make my writing acceptable, I had unknowingly begun hiding again.

It was the old protection wearing new clothes.

Once I hid the mystical because I feared being laughed at.

Later I softened it because I wanted my writing to be acceptable to more people.

Different circumstances.

Same hiding.

And I am finished hiding.

I don’t need to choose between Becky and Quinara.

I don’t need to choose between the ordinary woman and the mystic.

I don’t need to make the mystical ordinary enough to be acceptable, nor make the human being extraordinary enough to appear spiritual.

They belong together.

Quinara can be part of Becky’s story.

Sha’Na’El’-Ka’Zira can be part of Becky’s story.

Merlin, Isis, St. Germain, the temples, the forests, the dreams, the laughter, the questions and the mysteries can all be part of Becky’s story.

And I don’t have to tell another person what any of those experiences must mean to them.

I can simply say:

This is what happened to me.

This is what I experienced.

This is what it caused me to see.

Then you are free to discover what, if anything, it awakens within you.

Perhaps This Is the Bridge

I recently saw the book I am writing in a new way.

I had originally thought of it as something like a guidebook for a national park—a guide through the Gateways of consciousness, embodiment and sovereignty.

Then the image changed.

I saw myself walking the trail with others.

We climbed a mountain along switchbacks.

Sometimes we stopped at beautiful overlooks.

Sometimes we sat at a switchback and reflected upon how far we had traveled.

And at night we gathered around a fire and told stories.

That is when I understood.

I don’t want to stand at the bottom of the mountain handing people a map.

I want to walk with them.

I want to say:

Come with me.

There is something beautiful around this bend.

There is a story I want to tell you beside the fire tonight.

I will tell you about the forests.

I will tell you about the temples.

I will tell you about Merlin and Isis and St. Germain.

I will tell you about the inexplicable moments and the very ordinary ones.

I will tell you when I stumbled.

I will tell you when I laughed.

I will tell you when I wasn’t sure what any of it meant.

And perhaps somewhere within my story, you will remember one of your own.

You do not have to believe my story in the same way I understand it in order to sit beside the fire with me.

You are free to listen through the language of your own heart.

Coming Home

So I think I know the name that will appear on my writing.

Becky Prante.

Not because the sacred names have become less meaningful.

Quite the opposite.

They helped me bring something precious out of hiding.

They gave me room to discover it, strengthen it and learn to trust it.

And now perhaps their work has brought me full circle.

I no longer need them to separate the mystical part of myself from the woman living this human life.

The mystic does not have to replace Becky.

She can come home to Becky.

And Becky does not need to hide her anymore.

Perhaps this is one of the simplest understandings of embodiment I have encountered:

We do not become Divine by leaving our humanity behind.

We allow what we understand as Divine to move through the human form already here.

We bring the hidden pieces home.

We stop dividing ourselves according to what the world might accept.

The feet remain upon the Earth.

The heart remains open to the mystery.

And the storyteller walks between them.

My name is Becky Prante.

Some of you may think I am a little strange.

That’s okay.

Some of you may recognize something of yourselves in my stories.

Welcome. Come sit beside me.

I have walked some very interesting trails.

And I am no longer afraid to tell you the stories.

You see the journey never ends, it simply continues to unfold. 

These are my stories.

This is my magic. 

This is me.

Come let us continue to walk together if you wish. 

There are many stories yet to be shared around the fire of our Being.

Just listen with the through the language of your heart.

For me I no longer need to separate the mystical me and the woman who lived the life.

For as in this we become One,

I Am Becky Prante

The Power of Names in Spiritual Integration

This is a topic we have touched upon before, yet—as with all things—wisdom arrives in layers, revealed as we are ready to understand.

You may notice that I am currently using the signature Quinara. Over the course of my writing and sharing, I have used different names, and for those who are new, this may raise the question of whether I am channeling another being. When I am sharing words attributed to another voice or source, I always name them clearly. My personal signature appears at the end.

Why my name has changed

I want to begin with a verse from the Christian Bible, from the Book of Revelation:

“To the one who is victorious, I will give some of the hidden manna. I will also give that person a white stone with a new name written on it, known only to the one who receives it.”
— Revelation 2:17

There are many interpretations of this passage. What I share here is simply how it has come to be understood within my own lived experience.

For me, the stone is also a tone—a signature tone of being. The white represents clarity or purity, not in a moral sense, but as the gradual release of limiting beliefs, unresolved patterns, and inherited energies. For most of us, this clearing happens in layers, like the peeling of an onion. While sudden transformation is possible, it is more common that change unfolds gently over time.

As we release old patterns, our inner resonance shifts. With each shift, we function from a slightly different frequency of being—what I experience as a signature tone. This tone reflects a closer alignment with our Higher Self and, ultimately, with the I AM Presence or Monad from which we arise.

In simple terms, I understand the structure of being like this:
Source expresses itself through Monads.
Monads express through Higher Selves or Oversouls.
Oversouls express through personalities that experience life across dimensions, timelines, and worlds.

In this lifetime, I experience myself as one expression of my Higher Self and Monad.

As clarity deepens, resonance can align more easily with other expressions of that same Oversoul. This does not mean becoming another personality, but rather recognizing shared knowing, qualities, or gifts already present within the greater field of one’s being. Sometimes a name associated with another expression carries that resonance and can help anchor it consciously.

For example, Sha’Na’El–Ka’Zira was a name that helped me ground and align more fully with the Oversoul resonance I experience as Quinara. Using that name supported my integration at a particular stage. As embodiment deepened, it became more natural to simply use Quinara—honoring the unity of mind, body, and soul rather than emphasizing the bridge between them.

At times, I have also used names associated with other lifetimes or origins when the resonance supported specific work in service. These were tools of alignment, not identities to be adopted or performed.

In this way, the “white stone” and the “new name” are not about status or recognition. They are markers of integration—signals that a new level of coherence has been embodied. One does not need to be called by a name to be that resonance.

Some people feel guided to change their legal or social names, and for them that may be appropriate. Others, like myself, have many roles in life—family, work, community—and the name given at birth still carries meaning and continuity in those contexts. We wear many masks, yet we remain the same being beneath them.

Changing a name is not required for evolution. Nor should it be used to seek validation or distinction. What matters is embodiment—living from the resonance we have integrated.

If a name supports your work, clarity, or alignment, honor that. If it does not, there is no need to force it. What we are becoming does not depend on what others call us.

I share this simply as one way a process of integration may unfold. Each path is unique.

I AM Quinara.

Disclaimer

This reflection is a personal account of lived experience and inner understanding.

It is offered as one perspective among many, not as doctrine, instruction, or belief to be adopted by others.

Language such as “Higher Self,” “Oversoul,” or “I AM Presence” is used symbolically and experientially, to describe states of awareness rather than fixed metaphysical claims.

Readers are invited to take what resonates, leave what does not, and remain grounded in their own discernment, wellbeing, and lived reality.

What’s in a Name?

Shakespeare in Romeo and Juliet wrote,” A Rose by any other name would smell as sweet.”

This signifies that a name does not change the essence of who we truly are, or of anything whether object or living.

We each have a name given to us from at the time of birth or shortly thereafter. First names have been present since ones began to speak, and last names were added as communities grew and we had to many Edwins so they either used the Fathers name or their profession as the last name to distinguish one Edwin from another. The meaning of a name evolved also from aspects of their lives. For instance Edwin came from the Ead, meaning prosperity and Wine, meaning friend. So Edwin was the prosperous friend. Perhaps, this Edwin was a baker and another a farmer. Thus, one became Edwin Baker or if his father was the Bakers, Edwin Bakerson. The people at the time knew what the names meant, but through time unless we look up the meaning of a name, we probably have no idea what our name means. If you look on the internet, most names have a meaning.

In many religions, the baby name is chosen for qualities to which the parents aspire for their child and if attuned, the child’s spirit may have helped direct them to a name which brings a certain essence for which they desire in this lifetime. In Buddhist tradition it is said that Buddhist names bring to a baby the positive first impression. This can help the child to create a life of peace, enlightenment and virtue which are goals to which one aspires spiritually. For instance Achara means “an angel who is very pretty”. What girl or woman would not want to be thought of as an pretty angel, and aspire to live up to her name. In Hebrew Joseph means the “will of God” and Mary means ” beloved”. So love and the will of God were the parents who cared for Jesus. In Hindu religion the boy’s name Ishan means “harbinger of wealth”.

It can get confusing also. It is not only our first name which can influence our journey in life it is also middle and surnames. Why do we have middle names, and in the catholic faith they are also given a saint name. Often children were named after saints in ages past. Middle names allowed for ones long ago to name a child to honor an ancestor and to give them a saint name of protection. Sometimes it was to lessen the need to live up to the first name whether the meaning of it or if you were named after an ancestor so that you could choose to be called by another name. For Example, you were named after your aunt Harriet who was beloved, but today Harriet is not so popular a name, so they give you the middle name Rene so that you can choose to go by your middle name with friends and family. The name Harriet means “ruler of the home” while Rene means “reborn or peace”.

Most women have a point in time when if they marry they can choose to change part of there vibrational pattern by taking their husbands last name. If you find you do not resonate with your name, you do have the option of changing it at some point in your life. I was thinking in the past of how movie studios would change the name of actors to have a more powerful impact. Some along the way legally changed their name to the stage name if it was successful. Marion Morrison known as John Wayne never legally changed his name and all of his children have the legal last name Morrison, but use Wayne as their stage name. However, Norma Jeane Mortenson did legally change her name in 1956. Marion Morrison used the nickname Duke throughout his life and in his first few pictures he was Duke Morrison, until the studio decided John Wayne had more appeal. The name John Wayne means, John (graced by God) Wayne (wagon builder). Good name for a man in westerns aspiring to greatness. Marion Morrison means, Marion(of the sea) Morrison (son of Maurice).

Would they have had the same level of success professionally with their birth name? We will never know.

All creation begins with thought, an energy surrounds it and it is spoken into the sea of intent from which it manifests. Everything has a vibration and vibration affects everything. A strong name is the one that carries very strong vibration. Because of these strong vibrations, a person is able to attract success & fame.  Vibration can cause changes in our body, mind and emotional state. A high vibrational nae can aid us in our growth by inspiring us to reach higher. A name with which we do not resonate can cause us to feel bad about ourselves. Or, if the name we were given is considered unusual, we can be teased and feel bad about ourselves and our name. That is probably why Marion Morrison grew up being called Duke, a much more powerful name, which would not lead to being teased.

However, how we feel about our name is centered within us and our relationship with own inner self love and esteem and our need for the approval of others. The name itself is cannot hurt us but how we perceive it or the energy we give to it. All that exists is part of the Creator and so it is of value. A name can be another aspect of ourselves which we either embrace and it empowers or we have trepedation and it stifles our growth. There is nothing which we cannot transform in our lives and energy we cannot change to a higher vibration through belief, love, thought, intent and a some help from the Gold, Silver and Violet Flame of Transmutation. As we focus upon something from a heart centered perspective we learn to understand it from a higher perspective of love and unity, thus uplifting its vibration and our own. The Gold, Silver and Violet Flame, release and transmute all misqualified and stuck energy to allow the Gold of Wisdom and the Silver of Grace to fill our energy and uplift our thoughts and emotions, thus our perception and perspective regarding the issue we are addressing

Dr Wayne Dyer said, “When you change the way you look at things. The things you look at change.”

Perhaps what is needed is for parents to be mindful in choosing the names of their children, and if you don’t like your name, you can change it, or perhaps look up its meaning and it might change they way you perceive your name.

Jean Gebser, a philosopher in the early 20th century said,“Only if we grant power to something can it have power over us. It becomes a serving and sustaining potency when we again are able to place it into the realm where it belongs, instead of submitting to it.”

As we move from the physical level of a name to the spiritual we can also see changes. Along my pathway of growth my guides and teachers have at differing times referred to me by different names. These names helped to point out an aspect of myself to which I needed to pay attention. When I first began my journey they called me Bieta, meaning ” tenderness, inquisitiveness, pioneer, sacrificer”. These were certainly qualities upon which I was working as I moved into new spiritual realms. Then For a time they called me Serena, meaning “serene, calm , peaceful”, for my life was a bit chaotic and I needed those qualities. In the last year I was given the name Marguerite as I started blogging. Marguerite which means, “a pearl, daisy, ingenious, resolute, a child of light”. With the meaning of pearl, it became obvious for I was told I was a facilitator of Divine Wisdom within others and it means I listen to others with my heart in order to help them.

So we will find as we come to trust the Divine guidance within a name given to us to help us to resonate with where we are and where we are going at a point in time along our path. We don’t even have to legally change our birth name.

There is a technique on a site called kenpage.com which says to change the frequency vibration of your name and your relationship to it. List 10 things that you feel are beautiful and perfect. Then each night say I Am followed by the name of what you love. For instance, I AM roses, I AM the ocean, I AM the sunset and at the end say I love (your first full name). As you say each one feel the emotion of peace and love that you have for them. Thus you begin to identify your name and who you are with the things you love. Affirmations are powerful especially when spoken in conjunction with a strong emotion of love.

However, there is also another name, to which we will one day be given and it is the name of our soul. In the Christian Bible it says:

 “To the one who is victorious, I will give some of the hidden manna. I will also give that person a white stone with a new name written on it, known only to the one who receives it” (Revelation 2:17).

What does this mean?

The one who is victorious is the person who overcomes the lower nature of fear, fight and flight brought forth from ego centered choices and returns to a heart centered life of love, compassion, wisdom and truth. The hidden manna is spiritual truth and wisdom . It is this which sets us free and makes us victorious. The stone represents our spiritual foundation and to be white means we have purified ourselves mentally, emotionally, physically and spiritually of misqualifed energy. The new name being the name of our spirit, our soul, our I AM Presence, that part of us that is, always has been and always will be One with God and All Creation. It will come when you are ready, for only your soul knows that point in time.

However, your part is to do the work of looking at yourself, you thoughts, words and deeds with mindfullness and taking the steps to clear and transform that which does not align with the Divine that you truly are so that you can embody the I AM wihtin the form. This is called Ascension or Enlightenment.

To each of you by whatever name you choose to use, may you seek the enlightenment within yourself and Be All that your truly Are.

Blessings

Marguerite