Understanding who we truly are and from where the shadow emerges.
I AM THAT I AM
This name of the Creator was unspoken for generations. Why, I am not sure. What I do know is that in not speaking and understanding this Name we became limited and controlled.
I AM a part of the Creator. The Crator began creation by stating I AM, and thus brining the infinite energy of potential into a conscious patter of creation. I AM are the defining words of the Creator. From I AM came forth all that we see and know to exist. I AM , me the person in this form, because I AM created me. Thus I AM that I AM. I AM an extension of the Creator Source, like a cell within our body.
The Creator I AM decided to expand and create myriad forms through which to experience differing typse of existence. Many souls were brought into Being of which I AM one and so are you. I can exist as an individual when desired or return to the Oneness from which I came, a part of the Universal Mind and Infinite possibilities. I can express,experience and create in a single world or multiple worlds at the same time.
It is difficult in the dense energies of Earth with its many veils of illusion and forgetfulness to fully understand the concept of Oneness beyond an informational level. We are so trapped within the energies of the form, and the beliefs of the systems in which we live, that although one might say I Am a child of the creator. It is said in a way in which they have come forth as a baby does from the mother into an individual form, a separate being.
The word shadow can be defined as a lesser or vestigial form, a shaded or reflected image cast when a body comes between the light and another object, an imitation of the original or a source of gloom and unhappiness. To fully understand who we are a part of the Creator experiencing a physical existence, it must come from an emotional, heartfelt energy that allows us to let go of the physical boundaries of form and thought form. Only then can we truly feel, manifest and BE the Wisdom and Truth that we are ONE with ALL LIFE and the Creator. I AM like a cell, or drop of water within the sea of Universal Mind and Oneness, expressing in this for as I AM.
What can we do to remove the blockages that keep us from remembering and Being, I AM. There are many aspects of the process of remembering and being free which is termed Enlightenment or Ascension. For many one of the biggest blockages comes in the form of what many term the Shadow Self.
What is the Shadow and what do we do?
Some religions teach their followers to fear the Creator. There teachings say that the Creator punishes those who are bad. They say that we are all sinners and so we must appease the Creator in order for the Creator to love us and forgive us. This is similar to how many parents train their children to behave and believe in a certain manner. It is called the rewards and punishment system. In this system we learn to get what we want by saying and doing what the person in authority wants so that we will not be punished. This coupled with the belief in a punishing Creator, causes many to try to hide that which they think they have done wrong, or is different than their religious belief system in fear of going to Hell a place of eternal punishment.
So we try to hide these actions and feelings, hoping that the Creator wasn’t paying attention because after all there are so many people, perhaps what I did wasn’t noticed. I feel bad, so I will put my feelings and thoughts about the situation, words or actions in a box. We create a shadow. Many speak of the shadow and shadow work as something horrible to face, because the shadow is evil. The shadow is not evil, it is but those parts of ourselves that we have put away from the light. We stand between them and the light in order for them not to be seen by the Light/Creator, and hopefully we can forget them and not be judged or punished.
However, when we move along our Ascension path to Enlightenment, we come to realize that I AM a part of the Creator and thus the Creator already knows what I did and has forgiven me. Why would the Creator forgive me. Do I not have to be punished? The Creator gave us the right to choose what we do. However, with each choice it must be in a balanced manner that does not harm another, and if we make an unbalanced choice at some point in our existence it needs to be faced and balanced before returning to Conscious Oneness along the Ascension path. The Creator has forgiven us and is trying to help us to balance out the energy we created, by sending energy of love and forgiveness, and Beings of Light who await our call to help us to feel secure enough to face the shadow.
Perhaps if you think of the shadow like we do the Inner Child. Someone who has fear, pain and hurt created by their experiences which have been locked away behind a wall. This wall prevents us from fully, living, loving, forgiving ourselves and others. This hinders our experiencing and expressing who we truly are as a part of the Creator, who came to Earth to experience the joy of Life and Creation. Just like the Inner Child who needs understanding and love to quit punishing, and condemning ourselves for not living up to the expectations of others, so the shadow needs us to take down the walls and to look at the hurt within us. It may be from this lifetime or others, but the walls allowed us to function in society without crawling into a ball of self hatred and fear.
You may think,but I don’t have a shadow self and perhaps that is true. Perhaps you have inner child issues, or a blocked heart that keeps you from loving self or others. Sometimes, we are just not ready to look at the shadow. It may seem scary to open it up for it may be like Pandora’s box. Pandora’s box was full of all the sorry, hurt and pain in the world. Pandora was to keep it guarded and closed so that people could function and enjoy life. When it was accidently opened, they came to find out at the bottom of the box there was HOPE. Hope is what keeps us moving forward despite the pain, fear and despair in the world.
The Shadow is like Pandora and holds those emotions which we don’t want to face. However, remember there is hope. The Creator knows all about them, and who do we truly care about knowing and loving us more than our Creator. So if our Creator knows, allowed and forgave us, and even is sending us energy and Beings to help. Why not be hopeful and open the box.
You don’t have to swing wide the lid all at once. Sit down quietly and ask the Creator and Archangel Michael, the Protector Archangel and your own guardian Angel to protect you from any negative energies. Call forth the Gold, Silver and Violet Flame of Transmutation to clear the energies in and around you. Call upon the Golden White Light of Love to fill you and surround you.
The shadow is a part of you that wants to be loved, forgiven, embraced, healed and transformed back to light. Like you to the Creator it no longer wants to be separate from you. Ask the Creator to send help that you may open the box bringing Light and Love to the Shadow and look at one piece at a time. Just do one during this quiet time. Remember, it is not hidden from anyone, only put aside by you until you were ready to look at it and balance the energy so it can once again become part of you.
Look at what it is, a thought against another, an action you took that hurt another, a word you spoke in anger that hurt another. Perhaps it was something someone said about you, that you were ugly, fat, stupid and it hurt so much you couldn’t face it. Perhaps, you were a bit over weight and lost pounds, but never forgot , or you gained more from despair and self doubt. Look at whatever this one aspect is. Where did it originate? Was your reaction a part of your belief system and how you were taught by others to react? As a par tof the Creator, remember you are loved, worthy and each step of your path was a part of learning and becoming a more loving, forgiving and compassionate Being? For example does your weight define whether or not you are a loving and giving part of God? What reactions came as a result of the original event? Can you see it from a higher perspective and let go of the misqualified energies it created? Can you embrace that part of yourself, forgive yourself and all others involved? Can you move forward knowing this was but a step along a journey of Becoming, and once you understand the event and how to better move through such an event with loving understanding , you will never face it again, for you are I AM, a part of the Creator.
Once you have looked at this, once again bring in the Gold, SIlve and Violet Flame of Transmuation to clear the energies and return them to source. Surround yourself with Golden White Light again and ask that any cords, agreement or contracts involved with the situation be cut or terminated without karmic repercussions.
Give yourself a few days of self care before attempting another clearing, but as you look at these you will find yourself speaking to a friend who has carried a heavy burden for you, and now you are helping them and yourself to be free. There is nothing to fear or be ashamed for the Light of I AM is all that Is.
One day you will find that you and the Shadow are One and there is only the Light of I AM.
Blessings
I AM Mareya Shimayah Elohim.
Oracle of Divine Grace 