UPDATE: I am happy to say that with the help of Jesus, and the support of Archangel Michael and Joan of Arc that I have healed the fear matrix on this subject. I feel at peace and free. There will be many attempts in the days ahead to keep us all small, but we are not small we are Divine Souls experiencing and creating our reality. Let not the reality others would create to keep you small stop you from being and doing all that you are capable of manifesting in this life. You are never alone. Peace and Love be with you. I wanted to place this update before the message to inspire others to stay strong and call upon the Light and Love of Creator Source to be with you, heal you and to set you free of fear.
The Fear Matrix is behind all the less than loving and compassionate acts that humans perform. It can exist in abusers, dictators, spiritual leaders and followers, in every person there is a fear matrix that needs to be released.
These images are the crux of my fear matrix. I have faith in my protection on most levels but the extremism of religious and political belief systems have persecuted me in the past and they are what has been my achilles heel. I thought I had cleared them and in the last message brought by Archangel Michael, he purposely brought up the issues he did because the religious and political extremism present in today’s society is rising to the levels found during the dark ages of the reformation, or at least that is a feeling that comes to me.
As an empath, I am so aware of the energies of humanity in the world. It triggers me and that which I had thought I had cleared, but like an onion, come to find another layer is still there waiting to be removed.
One of my current guides and helpers is Joan of Arc. I feel her presence as one of encouragement to be courageous. Today I am having the blinders removed and seeing the reflections I did not want to see. If you don’t know of Joan of Arc she was a young girl in France at the time of the end of the 100 years wars. She was a devout catholic who felt a Divine calling from God and under the direction of Archangel Michael to lead the French army to victory over England and to freedom. She won her battles and King Charles the VII was crowned. She felt they should take back Paris too. The courtiers of Charles told him she was too powerful and in her battles toward Paris, she was captured by the English. Charles did nothing to help her. The english accused her of heresy, , witchcraft and dressing like a man. After a year at the threat of death she signed a confession and was sentenced to death anyway. She went to the burning dressed as a man.
I understand the chink in my armor as I reviewed her story with her today. In her case it seems after all she did and her faith that it was not fair that she be burned at the stake. Why was she not whisked off to safety? Why did Jesus die on the Cross? Would they both suffer similar fates today? Why was I burned and tortured in past lives because I lived and believed differently than the religious leaders in control or the political leaders of the time in which I lived? Some refer to this as the ‘witch wound’.
I was taken back to one lifetime in which I and my children served the Melchizedek Order of the Blue Rose. We held knowledge that both the religious orders and political leaders at the time wanted suppressed. We were constantly moving, just a few steps ahead of their followers sent to get us. Finally they caught up and we were betrayed. They raped my daughter, while setting our house afire to force myself and the twins out to capture us. She stayed in form just long enough for myself and the twins to leave our form and then she departed. All that remained were an empty shells for them to abuse and burn. This Joan of Arc reminded me was the same thing that Jesus and she did. They left the form at some point in the persecution before death.
The point was I had forgotten and so I have allowed fear to keep me from fully manifesting the Essence of that which I truly am. I have been willing to share as long as I was safe from physical identification. I have never been scared of the possibility of everyday threats but the hypocritical and fanatical religious and political extremism that exists and has existed for a very long time upon the Earth. The ones that have lifetime after lifetime persecuted myself and others for daring to act, look or believe differently from them.
I was told that if one had to defend their belief with attacks upon others than they are in doubt. For they fear that the other may be right and they must make them believe as they do in order to feel right even if by force. Even in writing this I have had to look at the energy of emotion that someone might find out who I am and try to prove me wrong. Even more than my own safety it has been that of my loved ones that was a main concern. For why should they suffer for my beliefs as in the life time of which I wrote.
I know that I am safe both soul and form. I remember now that for each one who faces persecution for their beliefs and what they are called to do, they at all times have a choice to leave the form or be taken to safety. It is simply a vehicle in which the soul travels upon the earth. Sometimes that through which one experiences trauma allows for the freedom of another as a result. However, the goal is that no one must experience trauma for being or believing differently than you.
There are as many paths to Oneness and Enlightenment as there are people or souls. What we need is compassion, understanding, caring and allowing for each to come to their own point of realization, without fear of harm or being ostracized from society.
I am very thankful for the reflection that triggered my understanding to a new level of that which I still need to release, forgive and transform. I cannot move into the next level of service until I have done so. I hope that in sharing this might help another to realize the fear that triggers them and needs to be released.
I Am Mareya Shimayah Elohim
Oracle of Divine Grace 