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Healing Inner Child Trauma: Spiritual Journey and Self-Expression

Let us look at and heal the small child within the closet we hold within ourselves.

First, let me state that if you are having serious emotional distress in your life that which I will speak of is not intended to replace your seeking of licensed professional medical or psychiatric help.

This is about your spiritual journey and the pain we have walled within our being from our childhood. There are very few people, unless they have worked with this energy or have had licensed counseling, who do not have some pain trapped within them from their life. It doesn’t necessarily have to have come from your childhood, it could be teenage, young adult, or adulthood physical, mental or emotional trauma.

I speak of it as the inner child trauma because when we are in pain or face intense challenges there is a trigger within us of fight or flight. This is like a child who hides from a challenge or pain to feel safe. I don’t know what a professional psychiatrist would say about this but I have found that at some point in our childhood, we experience a hurt or pain that makes us feel bad or scared. In that moment as a small child we create a safe space within ourselves to which we retreat from the pain and we build a wall or close a door in order to keep out the ones who frighten us or cause us pain. As an adult, when we flee often it is not a physical flight but a movement within us emotionally and mentally to a place within where we as a child have created a safe space.

This is a place where we can cry and hope to remain safe. A part of us has felt that we must not be good or worthy or what we experienced would not have happened. So we can hide that unworthy part, the fearful part of ourselves here where no one can see it and we don’t have to deal with the pain. Then we put a smile on our face and keep going. If we don’t face that unworthy part of ourself then it doesn’t exist. We can now tell ourselves that we are strong and put forth a face an energy of self confidence on the outside, for we have contained that hurt part within the walls.

Yet, this walled part of ourselves keeps us from fully loving ourself and feeling worthy of the love of others. It keeps us from being whole emotionally and mentally. It prevents us from fully manifesting the perfection that we truly are as a soul living in this physical form. It keeps us from knowing that we are able to embrace the concept that we are a part of all creation, a co creator of our reality. It prevents us from embracing the perfection of our being and expressing if fully.

We are an expression of the Universal Oneness of Creation. We are here to experience, learn, expand and create a better world for All Life.

So what do we do?

We begin by acknowledging that it is possible that we have this within ourselves. Then we need to be willing to look at the pain and fear within us. When we are ready we have choices, you can seek professional psychiatric counseling who can help you to find a safe way in which to approach and look at this pain. You can work with a hypnotherapist who can guide you within to look behind the walls you have built and connect with your inner child . There is also guided meditation and or meditation on your own to go within. You will also find many spiritual counselors or courses on line. There is also ministerial counseling. Which you choose is up to you.

However, at some point you must look at this pain and open the door or you will continue be stalled and bump up against this wall in your life and spiritual process.

It may be difficult to do this own your own and you may want to begin with guided meditations. Why do I say this? Because it is hard to not want to turn away when we approach this wall or door to the room and to face the pain within it. It may be easier to just let the ego mind take you out of the process. In a guided meditation at least you have the voice of another which continues to prompt you to move forward and you can focus on that voice instead of your ego mind. You ego mind is in the flight mode to protect you from further hurt it is not your enemy but it must not be your ruling force in life.

Your soul which you connect with in your heart leads you to freedom not your ego mind. You ego mind was created to keep your form safe, to determine how to function in the daily tasks of life and to do this under the direction of the soul. However, part of the earth program is spiritual amnesia in which we forget we are a part of the Universal Oneness and think we are a small separate individual who must struggle to survive in a world full of people and challenges that would hurt us. The idea is that when we focus upon our spirituality and turn within, then we remember and the amnesia dissipates. Then we can reclaim who we truly are as a Soul living in a human form.

This is why we must at some point look at the pain we have hidden within that which I am terming the inner child. I do this because most often it appears to us a small child or younger version of ourselves when we connect, who is huddled in the darkness and crying in pain.

The method I use in my meditation to connect is to move into my heart center. I focus my attention and inner vision upon the center of my chest where my heart chakra exists. I visualize walking deep within until I see a wall. I walk around to see if there is a door, if not I climb over the wall. On the other side is either a dark space or a room with a door. If there is a door I open it and go inside. In either of these, I will ask for a light to shine. Usually you will have heard someone crying or moving inside. When the light shines you will see them. Move towards them and introduce yourself and ask them what is wrong. Tell them you are here to help and listen to them. Then sit beside them and listen.

Reassure them that they are not alone anymore for you are there to help them. Ask them if it is okay for you to hug them and then do so. Ask if there is something you can do to help in this moment and listen. Then again reassure them that you are them and they have made it this far and together you will heal this pain to be even stronger.

Ask that the violet fire of transmutation will take this pain, the cause, core memory, record and effect from your Being to the source of it origin and to the subatomic cellular level. Ask that forgiveness for anyone who has hurt you both will fill your being and that you be forgiven from anyone that you have hurt in this situation that they will forgive you. Share your love with this part of you and feel them merge with you and reunite with you whole again.

As you have merged you can now in the light move out of the room or the walled area for the door is open or the wall gone and the lights are on. You can now come forth from your meditation with the focus that you are now free of this pain.

This does not mean that you may not have other pain that you have walled within from other instances and ages of your life still within and you may need to do this process more than once. For our pain even on a single area may have layers like an onion that need to be peeled away for they have resurfaced at differing times in our lives in different ways that have created a unique scar within us. There can also be entirely different topics of pain trapped in that room. A child may have the pain of being told they are bad, and the teenage may have the pain of saying being rejected by their peers and told they are weird, a young adult is rejected by someone they want to date, an adult has a spouse who cheats on them.

Each of these could be part of that childhood trauma of being told they are bad. Creating actions in their lives based on a belief that they are not good or worthy of love and affection that allows others to treat them badly. These are the effect of the core memory of the original event. The one journey can clear all of these and sometimes, we are not fully ready to let go of one of the legs of the effect. For instance, the spouse has recently cheated and it still hurts and we need to go back in and look at this pain which we feel as an adult. Don’t hesitate to do this process as many times as needed until you walk inside your heart and find there are no walls and no darkness.

During this process, always before you meditate, ask for protection. Archangel Michael will happily place you in his blue pyramid of protection. Please, ask for the highest light and energies possible to be with you. When you are entering your heart chakra it is always nice to ask Archangel Chamuel who is the protector of the Heart Charka to be with you and help you to release all pain. In addition, Archangels who can help in this process could be the Archangels who work with forgiveness. They are Archangels who deal with our Soul Star Chakra called Archangel Mariel and Archangel Lavender. They help us to forgive and to seek those who need to forgive us and ask them to do so. If you don’t believe in Archangels it is fine. Angels are in essence not winged beings but energy aspects of Creation which bring a particular aspect of energy to us when called upon and help us to feel connected to that energy.

May you find clarity in this process. If one suggestion doesn’t work try another to find what works best for you. Sometimes it helps to connect personally with someone to talk about things. We are all different and our journey and needs unique to us. Don’t give up if something doesn’t work keep trying it is worth it to be Free and Whole again.

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I will be offering a guided meditation mp3 of this soon on my etsy site. If you are interested please email and I will let you know when available. IF you have any questions or there is something I can help with please email.

oracleofdivinegrace@oracleofdivinegrace

Blessings on your journey to freedom.

I AM Mareya Shimayah Elohim.

Embracing Authentic Self: Accelerating into 5D Vibration

Your words and actions are the truth you project.

Do they match that which you say you believe?

Are you living your authentic self?

We are in a time of amazing opportunity for transformation of self to be that which we believe to be the best self possible. Earth is transitioning from 3D chaos to 5D organic existence. We are being given the opportunity to move forward with Earth, by the Universe sharing all the energies we need to do it.

These energies are intended to aid us and are activating energies which mean they activate within us that which exists. If you have done your spiritual work to clear old blockages and outdated beliefs, they are providing you with energies to accelerate into 5D levels of vibration to move with Earth easily.

If you have within you fear, anger, hatred, judgement, violence, prejudice or any other separatist, controlling or limiting energy including a lack of self love or non forgiveness then these too are being activated and accelerated. Not as a punishment, because the energy is neutral it simply provides the possibility of activation, but as a tool that we can use to identify and clear. We are being show these aspects so that we can make a choice to continue forward as we have or to look at them and make the choice to be free.

These energies are not a punishment, but a clear tool to aid us in this process. If we choose to look at those aspects of ourselves which we most often lock away behind a wall because we don’t like them, that which is termed the shadow self, we are given accelerated tools of transformation and release. What used to take years of therapy, counseling and for some living in isolation to identify, deal with, release and transform can more easily be accomplished.

The key is you must make the choice, be willing to do this, focus upon it with intent to release, transform and be free. I am not saying each one will be easy. Some of these emotions, memories and beliefs are deeply embedded within us. Some are ancestral and in our DNA, or are from prior lives, or childhood. Some we were taught by our parents, families and people we trusted to be truth and the way things should be. However, the world changes and evolves and we must decide if those truths are making us happier and creating a better world for ourselves and all life. This is not about saying you are bad or wrong. We each have chosen to participate and create the world in which we live. We seek ones who believe the same to validate those beliefs. We have the right to make that choices and live it as long as we desire.

However, if you are finding it is not as satisfying as you once felt, then perhaps it is time to reevaluate them. We are being given so much help in order to make this as easy as possible for the Universe loves us and wants the highest and greatest good for all. Energies of release and transformation are coming forth to help us.

One of the best tools is the Violet Fire of Transformation from the Source of Creation which will remove and transmute any energy we are ready to release. Bring it down to the subatomic level of your being to release that which keep you from enjoying freedom to move into 5D level of vibration and Ascension with Earth.

There are many levels of release and transformation but we are being given the tools to make it easier. However, we must do the work no one can do it for us. For we are given free will to make the choice of how we want to live, learn and explore life and creation. We do not judge you as right or wrong, we are simply offering an alternative. If you are ready to live a life of freedom from chaos to explore the possibilities of the Universe, begin the process now.

We don’t need a space ship to see the wonders possible, for it exists within our light body to travel to the Infinite ends of existence and create more. This is the freedom that awaits us. We can’t reach that if we want to hold on to hatred, anger, violence, separation, fear and all the other changes that tie us to 3D chaos reality. One day all will make the choice of freedom, but it may not be as easy to do as it is now with all the help available.

Where do you begin? Begin by being mindful of your thoughts before you speak and act. Stop before you speak, take a deep breath and ask yourself is this kind, helpful, uplifting and unifying? If not, then ask yourself what it is within you that causes you to have this thought that would hurt another or cause separation. This is what needs to be released and transformed.

It is a process. When you can identify it, you need to be willing to release it. When you are ready to release it call for help and ask that the Violet Fire of Transformation, a gift of the Universe to come into your being to the subatomic level to release the energy or thought. Ask that the cause, core memory , record and effect of this original creation be released and transformed. Then ask that the clear diamond light of purity fill those cleared spaces with light and love.

Think of the Violet Fire as a flame that moves through you clearing and burning away the debris. If it is a thought form or belief you can also think of it as a camp fire, into which you write the thought on a piece of paper and say, I release this old belief or memory into the fire of transformation to be released of the cause, core memory, record and effect it has had upon me – TO BE FREE.

This is where you begin, by making the choice and taking control of your thoughts, words and deeds which create your future. There are more steps to take and we will be looking at them in the days ahead, but this begins your process. Love yourself, forgive yourself, embrace yourself and others who are part of you. We will look at that which is ancestral in your DNA, your inner child that has been affected and locked away since childhood, we will look at past lives.

I plan to create and offer in my esty shop MP3 meditations for ones to use to look at each of these areas and to move to release and transform them. For most of us have many layers of clearing and it helps to have something to refer back to and aid us in this process. I will let you know if you are interested when they are ready.

If you have any questions please email me and may your journey bring you joy and peace whatever you choose.

I AM Mareya Shimayah Elohim

Freedom and Synchronicity

Signs are all around us trying to verify our truth or get our attention.

Today, I am participating in a virtual event for which I am so thankful my spiritual guides prompted me to participate. I live in California and it is taking place in Spain so it was not feasible for me to be there for this one day event in person. This is one of those times when the internet is such a blessing.

I am sharing that because of the synchronicities involved. The program is 8 hours ahead of me and so I am awake during the middle of the night to be a part, but it is so freeing. So far we have done a clearing and removing of the veils of illusion of the third eye to activate to a higher perception. Yesterday, a message came to me from my I AM Presence about a meditation to do and it reminded me of parts of the meditation we did today.

Then, we were part of a meditation to clear all contracts, cords, agreements, energies, entities, etc., etc. from our first incarnation until now, from our physical, mental, emotional, and akashaic, and to input a clear new intent of higher purpose into our fields. As I thought about this now during our break, it reminded me of the message yesterday from my I Am that spoke about the wisdom now opening to me to be shared as a teacher to help others. It had taken a great deal for me to begin to be a blogger, and to share with others. Those old fears were finally cleared today.

Then another synchronicity, as I was sitting here waiting for the session to resume after their lunch break, it is about 5 am here, I was drawn to a book I recently purchased by Dr Joe Dispenza. I was draw to his sharing that for years he had been cautious in his writing as a doctor/scientist to be aware that what he shared would not bring ridicule by the scientific community. Then one day his perspective shifted and he realized that was no longer a blockage. The two meditations today were about releasing that which holds us back, and to open to the higher perspective and seeing all not from a judgment of them or ourselves, but from a perspective of love, compassion and allowing. That anothers perspective is simply that and can only affect me if I allow it.

My work is to grow and free myself spiritually and to share my experiences and understanding in a way to help others to do the same. It is not my part to try to force or control another to change, or to limit myself by allowing their beliefs to influence my choices. All I can do is share my understanding of truth a the moment and in faith that it will help another. How another interprets or understands what I share, I cannot control nor do I want to do so. For it is in the choices we make and the experiences we have that we learn and grow.

Today, I was freed to see the Divine in All and to let go of the veils of illusion which have kept me from being free. The steps we take can be giant leaps or baby steps, each situation is different. Sometimes we take 4 steps forward and tomorrow 1 step back. However, I was reminded yesterday to ask myself – “Am I Present”. This means to realize if I am looking to the past and allowing the old beliefs to limit me. Am I looking to the future, and anticipating what might happen. Am I being present in this moment, in my heart, where I can connect to my Soul guidance, and my I AM Presence and receive the higher perspective before acting, speaking or doing.

We all will reach a space of self mastery, enlightenment and self awareness, where we live in a state of BEING and all that we do comes from that space. That is freedom and the synchronicities become more prevalent. That is my goal, and what I hope to share with others along my journey so that we can all live in the Moment, guided by our I AM Presence, our soul and together usher in a new state of Being for All.

Blessings dear one.

I AM Moriah

Cleansing and Healing

We are in a period of history in which such powerful energy is coming to us from Creator Source and the Host of Light Beings who serve the Creator so that we can Ascend if we truly desire to do so.

Having just passed through the Covid period of time and now in the northern hemisphere we enter the cold and flu season. Due to this it may be easy to dismiss your clearing and healing symptoms of Ascension. Often the symptoms are similar to colds or flu.

I was reminded of this and nudged to post about it having gone through a clearing recently. I was exposed to a respiratory virus when I visited a relavtive, while wearing a mask ,and could easily have believed it was simply this virus. However, I noticed that my symptoms unlike the person to whom I was exposed, centered around my throat. It was so sore and I am a person who is very rarely sick. I had in the past had strep throats and tonsilitis and the symptoms were similar. However, my intuition told me that it was a clearing of my throat chakra.

My higher self has been guiding me to more strongly speak my truth and this was a way of getting my attention. Sometimes, spirit wants us to stop or slow down, pay attention and do self care. This was the case for me. I have learned that if I feel a strong sense I am getting sick to get into bed, clear my energy with the violet flame, bring in the green flame of healing and the white light of the Creator. In this case ,I also used lots of throat lozenges and colloidal silver for physical symptoms and meditation for non physical causes. I rested most of 3 days and never had to go to the doctor or take anti biotics.

I am not recommending that others do not go to the doctor when they feel sick. Everyone has different physical constitutions and needs. What I am saying is,that for myself, I realized early that Spirit was wanting to take me through a clearing and healing to activate my throat chakra to another level. Had I not listened and simply told myself it was a respiratory infection, it might have been so. I was also having lots of fatigue and less air capacity. I was reminded that I needed to pay attention to my Breath, the passage of Chi life force into our body, and to consciously breath deeper and slower.

There has been much information on the internet for years regarding ascension symptoms and how to handle. I would like to discuss a few because I feel it is important that we go within to see if what ever we are experiencing had a physical cause or is part of our process.

NOTE: Never forego Medical or Psychiatric help and dismiss what you are experiencing. This information is not intended to replace your own medical help.

Some of the symptoms include:

Bodily aches and pains – we can simply acknowledge it as a result of the weather or our age or bodily health. As part of the ascension process it can be the result of the frequency of our cells rising and as they are changing into higher dimensional frequency, they can change and expand. You can use the Gold, Silver and Violet Flame to help clean out old residue, BLESS and drink plenty of water to flush out that which is released, exercise, walk or be in nature.

Headaches – As our frequency is rising, the energies of our mind and ego can be resisting and wanting to hold onto the old thoughts and patterns so tightly that it become like a constricting band. Again go within and ask your Higher Self what you are resisting or holding on to tightly and ask to be released. Use the Violet Flame to clear and release, drink Blessed water and meditate.

The flu and cold symptoms I discussed with my own symptoms. You may experience the flu symptom of vomiting to purge the body, or diarrhea. Get medical help and advice to be sure you don’t allow theses symptoms to become an even greater problem physically. However, like myself it can be a part of the process of letting go, clearing and activating.

Anxiety, panic attacks and depression: IF,these are new symptoms for you they can be a part of not understanding the changes you are going through physically, mentally, emotionally and spiritually. We tend to not want to change our life and let go of old patterns and thoughts unless we are forced to do so. We will try to ignore and make excuses not to face them. This creates a break between the flow of our energy with our Soul and I Am Presence of the Creator of which we are a part. It is best to stop when we have symptoms, to move into our heart center and ask to be shown. BREATHE – slowly and deeply to allow the life force to circulate within and remove the energies and use the Violet Flame of transmutation. These will slow the symptoms and allow you to come back into balance.

Emotional imbalances of intense ups and downs or outbursts, and fear which can cause withdrawal. These are us facing our emotional fears and patterns which need released and to learn how we deal with them. I would advise using the same tools of going within, Breath, Violet Flame and meditation. HOWEVER, if you have had either of these last two symptoms before and for extended periods of time you need to seek medical and or psychiatric advise.

FATIGUE – so many are experiencing extreme fatigue no matter how long they sleep. This comes from resisting letting go of old patterns also. We may find ourselves sleeping too much and even very little. This can be because of the energy changes in our body. If we are allowing and not blocking we will find we need less sleep and food. If we are resisting, we may need to sleep so that our spirit can aid us to release and make the needed changes. Again, go within, ask your Soul what it is you are resisting. Then use your Breath and Violet Flame to help release them. You may have cords of attachments from and with others that need released, for which Archangel Michael will help you if asked. You may also have old spiritual agreements and contracts which no longer serve your higher good which need released.

Tinnitus or sounds in the ear. So many have these symptoms as do I . I have had them for years but I knew that they were the result (at least for me) of hearing Spirit and the energies around me from non physical dimensions. It was part of the telepathic and clairaudient process. So I learned to simply allow it and not worry or pay attention to it as something that bothered me but as something that was helping me. When you focus upon it as a bad symptoms or something wrong that is your reality. My mother had it and sometimes felt suicidal because it bothered her so much. For me, it is present most of the time and unless it becomes loud to get my attention or I place my focus upon it, during normal daily activity I am seldom aware it is there. If I hear it increase, I simply sit and ask whom or what is trying to contact me. AGAIN – this is not saying that tinnitus is not the result of some physical problem for which you need to seek a doctors advice. I am saying that not all sounds we hear are tinnitus which can have a physical cause, but can be part of our process and opening to higher guidance.

Seeing Spirits or non physical images. As we grow spiritually,clear our energies and raise them we will begin to see Spirit and beings from beyond the third dimension. This gift is called clairvoyance. For me when this first happend about 30 years ago, it was upsetting. I would see images superimposed upon my physical visual range. It was not all the time, but when it happened,no matter what I was looking at I would see an image superimposed over the background. It was as if you would be looking through a window outside and the window had an image painted upon it that obstructed your view of the outdoors. This image would have differing forms, it may be shaped like an eagle, but within that outline are geometric form of triangles and circles of differing colors which vibrated. As time progressed the image would grow until it filled my visual range and I could not make out the form any longer only see the vibrating colors. The colors still remaining translucent enough to see the world, but with a vibrating image overlayed. I learned that this was spirit, sometimes they called themselves color ray scientists working with my visual energies to activate and sometimes to teach me something through the image, colors and vibrations. So, don’t be afraid, if you begin to see things, go within and ask what it is. HOWEVER, I am not saying that you should not seek a doctor or optometrist to advise for it may be something for which you need medical help.

Remember we are in a process and that sometimes instead of a drug we need to allow the process to take place.

TOOLS to remember.

Bless and drink lots of water to flush out old toxins. To Bless water you simply need to ask that the Creator will transform and Bless this water so that it is absolutely perfect for you and your process.

Spend more time in Nature and meditation.

IF you feel the need to sleep do so.

If you feel sluggish, try walking and excersising.

Watch the food you put into your system for chemicals and types of sugar.

Try abstaining from recreational drugs and alchohol.

Meditation and going into the heart is so helpful to balance, learn and expand.

Breath – learn to breath deeply and slowly.

Service – learn to focus on helping others and sharing of higher energies so that you don’t become stuck and can continue to grow spiritually and expand.

If you have any questions or need help, please feel free to email.

violetfireministry@gmail.com

Namaste

Marguerite