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Digging Deeper

Part 4 – Purification of the Doorway

I was going to share my conversation with Isis at this time

Instead, something unexpected happened. 

As I sat quietly contemplating everything that had unfolded during the last couple of days, I felt a gentle nudge from Yeshua.

Not in words at first, simply the knowing that another piece needed to be opened at this time.

So I listened.

I saw myself  sitting in my chair reflecting upon the dream, the sacred mountain and the movie and I noticed something I had not consciously see before.

Each story had stirred a different yet similar emotion within me.

Anger.

It was not uncontrolled anger or rage

It was the quiet ache that arises whenever authority is used to control, diminish or separate rather than to serve.

As this realization settled within me, the scene around me changed.

I suddenly found myself outside an ancient temple in the middle east.

People filled the courtyard.

Animals were being sold for sacrifice.   

Merchants called out to those entering the temple.

It appeared that for the people this was familiar and ordinary.

The in the distance I heard cheers and loud voices. 

I could see appearing at the entrance a man whom I recognized as Yeshua, walking toward the temple. 

Above the courtyard, I noticed the priests gathered together in anxious conversation.  I noticed their attention never left him.

As I watched, words from a familiar musical were playing within my head.

They spoke of a song so deeply woven into the creation that even if every voice was silenced, the stones themselves would continue singing.

Those words have always touched something deep within me when I hear them.  

Not because of the music…..

It is that they remind me that truth does not depend upon human approval.

Life itself sings the song of truth.

I thought that this must be all that I was meant to witness.

Then one of the cats in our home began calling to me.

Like many who share their lives with cats, I obediently went to see what was needed.

He simply wanted to go outside and so I smiled, opened the door and watched him wander into the garden.

Sometimes wisdom arrives in the smallest of pauses.

 As I returned to my chair, something shifted.

I suddenly saw that what had moved me so deeply was not simply the events in the courtyard

It was the misuse of authority

Whether through governments

Religion…

Institutions…

Or individuals..

Whenever authority seeks to control rather than to serve, something within me immediately responds

That realization sent me back the stories of the weekend trilogy.

The barren landscape

The Sacred mountain

The hidden society beneath the sea.

All three reflected different expressions of the same them.

I sat quietly with that understanding.

Then the vision continued.

Most of us know what happened next.

Yeshua entered the courtyard

He overturned the tables

The story usually moves quickly from there toward the events that followed

But this time…

Yeshua simply smiled and said,

“Keep watching”

The scene had changed.

Now I found myself in another land, surrounded by mountains

Ahead of me I saw a man striking his mule.

Another man gently stepped between them.

I recognized him it was Gautama Buddha.

He quietly spoke with the man, explaining the importance of kindness and compassion toward every living being.

When the conversation ended, the man lowered his hand and dropped the stick.

Gautama Buddha walked away to a quiet place and sat down. 

As I approached he motioned me to sit with him.

I bowed and asked him what I should call him and he said “Gautama”.

A moment later Yeshua joined us.

Yeshua looked at me with a smile.

“Were you surprised?”

I laughed softly.

“Yes… and no.”

 “ I was surprised to find myself suddenly here, but not at what transpired at the temple. “

“I understand why you overturned the tables,” I replied.

“I have felt that same fire rise within me whenever I witness injustice.”

As I looked at Gautama I said, : I understand why you chose another path.”

Gautama smiled gently.

“Anger is simply an emotion,” he said.

“It naturally arises whenever compassion encounters suffering or injustice.”

He paused before continuing.

“It is not the emotion that determines our path.

It is what we choose to do with its energy.”

Yeshua nodded.

“My desire to stop what I believed dishonored the sacred pulled me out of my own center.”

He smiled again.

“Perhaps history remembers the overturned tables because they were dramatic.

But had I been standing there today, I might have responded differently.”

Neither statement diminished the other.

Both revealed another way of seeing.

Gautama continued.

“Witnessing does not mean standing aside while cruelty unfolds before us.

Compassion sometimes asks us to act.

But there is a difference between acting from clarity…

and reacting from anger.”

Yeshua looked toward me.

“When any strong emotion arises…”

He paused.

“…breathe.”

“Pause.”

“Allow the emotion to move through you rather than become you.”

Guatama said” It is not even that anger arises but that we don’t react from that place of anger.”

“Yes, said Yeshua” It is in that moment when we have anger or any raw emotion

we need to pause

take a deep breath to allow the stillness to emerge

“Then ask the stillness,

‘What is mine to do now?'”

“The answer that comes from stillness will almost always serve more deeply than the answer that comes from reaction.”

Gautama nodded.

“This is mindfulness.”

“Not the absence of emotion…

but the willingness to meet it without becoming its servant.”

Then they both looked directly at me.

“You have always been deeply moved by injustice,” Gautama said.

“The misuse of authority has been one of the great teachers of your life.”

Yeshua continued.

“This does not make you unworthy.”

The words settled into a silence deeper than any explanation.

“It is not your compassion that has held you back.

It is believing that your compassion required you to carry everything.”

I felt tears welling.

For years I had believed that caring so deeply somehow meant I should sacrifice more…

endure more…

prepare more…

prove more.

Perhaps that had been the real burden all along.

Love without sovereignty quietly becomes self-sacrifice.

Compassion without inner authority can forget its own worth.

For a long time I had mistaken those things for spiritual maturity.

Now I began to see them differently.

Gauatama spoke,

 “You my child seek Peace, balance and harmony not just for yourself but in the world.”

 You try to protect others. 

The injustice of authority being used to control or harm another has always been your trigger.”

Yeshua says:

“Now is the time to bring this into focus for balance and harmony to come forth,

so you can find Peace and self acceptance.

This is not an emotion that makes you unworthy it simply is.

As we said you need to understand that you should not punish yourself for having an emotion which arises from caring but understand it.”

What they were saying were not expressions of love.

They were invitations to return to my own center.

The conversation continued.

“When emotion arises,” Yeshua said softly,

“Witness it.

Allow it.

Breathe.

Release it.

Then listen.”

“The stillness will reveal whether action is needed…

or simply understanding.”

Without another word, both men stood.

We bowed to one another.

The vision dissolved.

I found myself once again sitting quietly in my chair.

As I reflected upon the dream…

the mountain…

and the hidden ship…

their deeper meaning finally became clear.

The barren landscape revealed systems that keep us believing separation is all that exists.

The sacred mountain revealed the longing for permission before entering what has always been sacred within us.

The hidden ship revealed how easily familiarity and control can become substitutes for freedom.

All three had stirred the same place within me.

All three reflected my own response to authority.

But now I asked different questions.

What memory first taught me that authority meant control?

Where does that feeling still live within my body?

What beliefs continue to give it life?

As I sat with those questions, another realization quietly emerged.

Without this conversation…

the throne would have remained only another spiritual symbol.

Now I understood why this chapter had come first.

Something within me had to release the belief that caring deeply made me less worthy before I could truly hear what Isis had been waiting to say.

And only then…

was I ready to enter the temple.

I believe I am ready to cross a threshold.

Isis is not coming to bestow sovereignty.

She is coming to reveal the sovereignty that could not be fully accepted until compassion was freed from the burden of self-sacrifice.

Yesterday, I was standing outside of the temple believing the door was locked.

Today, I leave it feeling that the temple doors are no longer the focus.

The one who has been standing outside them has finally turned the handle.

I am excited for the next revelation of digging deeper.

Reflection-Clarity

Understanding reflection allows us to find clarity.

When we find ourselves upset, angry or irritated by the words or actions of another it is because they are reflecting back to us an energy that still exists within us and needs to be cleared. You may say, “Wait a minute. What about people who are judgmental or prejudice? I am not either of those.” In the fact that you are judging another to be judgmental means that energy is still within you in some form. You may not have the exact same beliefs, words or actions but there is some form of energy blockage within you. Every blockage of energy within us is an anchor that keeps us from being free.

If not then their energies would not cause a reaction in you, and instead you would begin to bring in energies of release, healing and transformation into the situation to help them and others who have the same energy. You would have understanding and compassion for them as a part of God with experiences and beliefs which are still affecting them in their thoughts and actions. 

For instance, someone may see a homeless person and speak of them as lazy, or drug addicts, disgusting or mentally unbalanced. Why, perhaps as they grew up they were taught that our worth is based on how hard we work, how much money we make and the things we own. Someone who has fallen upon hard times or had life altering experiences which has created this life situation is beyond their learned understanding. The person who judges them, may also fear that if they don’t work hard enough they could be in that situation. That just being them is not good enough. 

So you have judged them for their lack of understanding or fear reaction which had caused them to judge another. When we are clear of this energy of judgment,or whatever the energy of the situation may be, we can hear or see their reaction and we have understanding and compassion for them as well as the ones about whom they are speaking and reacting. We have no blockages and so their fear, anger or reaction flows through us instead of triggering us. Instead we think of how we can help in this situation to release and transform the energies and be of service. 

Remember that all that exists is part of the Creator Source and so all is linked together and part of each other. What we do, say or feel about another we are doing unto ourselves or a part of ourselves and Creator Source. What we can clear from ourselves, releasing and transforming, we clear from mass consciousness. This is making it easier and setting a pattern for others to release and transform. All life is linked upon Earth within the Creational Matrix of Earth. Through our thoughts and beliefs we create our perceived existence. When we clear something within ourselves it takes that energy out of mass consciousness making it easier for others to be free.

Updated comment: I would like to add a few thoughts that Jesus wanted to say in regard to this. He reminded me of a concept he spoke of in “Love without End” by Glenda Green. He called it ‘innocent perception’. It is what children do naturally, they look at a person or situation or even a landscape before them and they see it without preconceived ideas of how it should be or creating a story about why it is as it appears. They simply see and accept. Animals do this also. I am not trying to compare children to animals, just the concept of innocent perception comes with ‘innocence’ of non beliefs and learned concepts of an idealized way of being or doing. When we let go of the blocked energies, beliefs and patterns of taught idealized behavior which is acceptable, we come down to realizing all is exactly as it needs to be in that moment in time. Each person is learning and experiencing exactly what they need to grow. So why should we use healing prayers for them. Because the energies on earth are so dense, that they have difficulty breaking through to even contemplate another way of seeing, believing and doing. If we can clear some of the dense energies in the mass consciousness, they can perhaps have an AHA moment. If not now then later. When we clear anything for ourselves or within the grids of the planet, we make a difference in what is available for ones to access.

We are seeing them exactly as they are without judging, just observing. We see an energy that can be cleared to help others and we work with it. We are reminded to daily attempt to see things with innocent perception. We can begin by affirm and strengthen the positive energies within us through gratitude (thank you)and to release the negative energies through forgiveness (I’m Sorry, Please forgive me) and practice love, compassion and understanding for all life. For we would all do better if we knew how to do better. and that is why the prayers and calling in of the violet flame can make it easier for other to release the patterns and blockaged that hold them back.

The ho’oponopono healing prayer of reconciliation and is a good process to understand and use in this situation. It goes –

I’m Sorry, Please forgive me, Thank you, I love you.

I want to explain a bit what each part means to me so that you can understand it more fully. Then in a situation where you see you might be able to help release energies you can simply say these words to yourself, and understand the meaning.

I’m sorry – is about understanding in our oneness that we can hurt another part of ourselves and Creator Source. In so doing and we need to clear these energies for us and the others involved to be free. I’m sorry that a part of me has hurt another part of myself. 

Please forgive me -In asking for forgiveness for ourselves and others for the energies, beliefs and actions which have or are occurring, we allow for the process of forgiveness and release to begin for all. For we are part of the Creator experiencing and expanding as are all others and what we do for ourselves we do for all.

Thank you – is knowing that as we are all one, when we are sorry and ask for forgiveness in the whole, the Source always loves us and we are always forgiven. We can be thankful also for the learning experiencing and a chance to be of service.

I love you – Love of the Creator, ourselves and all others. Love is the essence of being and existence. I know that as we gain wisdom we would not knowingly do or say anything to hurt another. It is only in our confusion or lack of clarity and understanding that we do so. When one feels love they are released and transformed. In loving them we send love from our heart to their heart and help them to be uplifted.

Thus ,in understanding what the prayer means in a situation you can begin to say the words and know within you automatically the meaning. Helping to transform and release not just the immediate situation, but the energy within mass consciousness for everyone trapped by this control mechanism. 

You become the change you wish to see in the world with clarity.